You are a beautiful human.

Really, you are.

You gave me one of the most amazing gifts you could ask for: hope. You gave me genuine hope that my life will get better. You gave me hope that I will get better, with time and effort of course. You gave me hope in finding faith within myself.

You taught me that pain does not last forever and that time heals most wounds. You taught me how to be a leader by leading by example. You taught me how to trust others. You taught me to be responsible for my own recovery, and myself. You taught me that if you fall down seven times you get up eight. You taught me to never give up- ever. No matter how bad I want to.

You allowed me to ask for help. You allowed me to express my feelings. You allowed me to confide in you with even the darkest of things. You allowed me to be myself. You allowed me to move on to new opportunities and new people. You allowed me to take your time and energy for my own needs.

You told me to believe in myself because you believed in me. You always reminded me how amazing, strong, and wonderful I am. You told me that I made a difference in your life. By saying all of that you made me feel like I mattered; like I was worth it.

You gave me a better perspective of the world and of myself. You opened my eyes to the things that I could not see. You changed my outlook on life by giving me a drive to truly live and succeed. You gave me energy and motivation, desire and strength, love and kindness.

You were my coffee; the thing that kept me going when times got tough. You provided safety and security, positivity and warmth. You provided me with the tools and advice to begin to improve my life for the better.

I miss you. A lot. I miss the way your smile lit a fire in my soul and the way your hugs put all of my broken pieces back together. I miss how your laugh was contagious and the way your voice changed when we had a serious conversation. I miss your sarcasm and your wisdom.

To be honest, it hurt when you left. I wasn’t ready for it. But was I ever going to be? More than hurt, I was scared. Scared of what was going to happen to me now that I didn’t have anybody to go to; nobody that I trusted.

I know that you didn’t mean to hurt me. You did what as best for you, and though it hurt, I’m glad you left because I care about you and your well-being greatly. I’m not mad at you in the least. Actually, I want to thank you for leaving. It forced me to learn how to trust other people.

I am so beyond thankful and appreciative for all that you have done for me. Not only did you change my life, but you saved it, too. And for that I can never repay you.

Thank you for being you. You’re truly one of a kind.

I hope to talk to you again someday soon to find out exactly why you left and what I did wrong, but until then take care.