All my friends told me not to message you back. They all said you were a ….. let’s go with jerk. But I didn’t want to be someone that judged people off of what they heard about them. So I messaged you back. First mistake.
Dang, you tried so hard a first. Even when whenever I replied to you I would think in my head “just sound kinda rude. Don’t be too nice.” You told me most of the right things. Tried to tell me how much you weren’t like everyone said you were. First lie.
As time went on I got soft. I started to believe that maybe you weren’t as bad as everyone said. I knew that I was wrong, but you started to get in my head. With all of the “good morning” texts, and telling me that I was beautiful, I started to think you could mean it. Silly me.
I never wanted to care if you texted or called me. I never intended to care at all. And even though I always told you that I never thought about you as more than a friend. That was a lie. I did think about it even though I didn’t want to. I started to care more than I wanted to. Second mistake.
You got mad because I wouldn’t say that I had feelings for you. But I just couldn’t. I couldn’t put it all out there while in my heart I knew that I couldn’t trust you. I knew that there was no way you weren’t the guy everyone said you were. I couldn’t take the risk on you. So I lied. You got mad. And that was it.
You wanted me to trust you. You wanted me to throw caution to the wind. In the end you just threw me to the side. I was right about you. I knew I was right. You tried to say that I was judging you. That I just needed to give you a chance. When what I really needed to do was run the other way. I won’t make that mistake again. Trust me.
-One of many girls you played
