Dear you,

I have never been one to have relationships and I am not quite sure why I had the thought that you and I could have been official.

The way we met was, as they say, "unexpected", and it always said, "expect the unexpected". It was apparent that you had an attraction towards me from the beginning but I was not interested in you.

Time went by and there was nothing between us. Yeah, we knew the existence of one another because of social media but that was about it.

Of course, life worked its ways and our paths crossed when we least expected it. The attraction between us wasn't as strong at that point but we were in closer proximity than we were before.

We acknowledged each others presence and from that day forward things would not go back to what they were before.

I was no longer the girl that could care less for guys like you. I began to get those infamous feelings that everyone our age tries to avoid.

I tried my hardest to tell myself I was being dumb and tried to conceal those feelings I was beginning to develop for you, but it seemed like the opposite happened, they grew stronger.

We would have communication here and there mostly through social media and half would be flirt while the other half was just nonsense.

There came a moment where I had the courage to tell you, I had feelings for you and you said we would get to know each other better on a personal level.

While I thought that was going to happen, you proved it to be a lie. I would put in the effort to show you I was spending my time on you, while you seemed to have a life too busy to fit me in.

I had to learn the hard way that we were never meant to be. It came to me that you had time to talk to other girls and go other places, but you didn't have the time to send a text to know me a little better or see if we could hang out.

All I kept asking myself was 'how were you able to tear down the walls I had built so high because of guys like you?'.

I found myself losing who I was, my own identity, what people knew me by because I was so hung up on the idea that we could be a couple because of your confusing behavior with me.

When I saw the proof my eyes needed to see to make me realize you weren't worth my time and I was too good for you, I knew it was time to get my true identity back and make you realize you messed up.

Yes, we had the attraction but was that all we had for each other? If so it definitely was not enough to take 'us' to the next level.

I want to say thank you. Thank you for making me realize that I shouldn't change my personality because I want a serious relationship with a guy like you.

I thank you for making me realize I need to love myself first and respect myself enough to not let immature players like you make me think that I am the only one you 'talk' to when that is not the truth at all. And thank you, for making me realize that actions do speak louder than words.

I hope you find what you are looking for and since you did say I confused you I hope that gets cleared up so that you can find what you are truly looking for.

Thank you for being a lesson well learned.

Hopefully, your next 'almost' relationship does not just stay at that level hopefully you don't go through the hell that you put me through.

Sincerely,

The girl that realized she deserved better in her life.