Thank you!!
Thank you for teaching me strength from within. That I myself should believe in myself, in who I am and who I want to be. Thank you for teaching me people aren’t always who you think they are. That in a blink of an eye things can and will change. And, lastly thank you for teaching me there is so much more to life than High School. You showed me that whoever said "High School is the best four years of your life" was a dirty liar. There is so much more after.
By you sleeping with them and keeping it from me all these years I learned 3 things-- girls are deceiving, jealousy is a bitch, and I’m a lot stronger than I ever thought. Let's start with your deceiving personality, you wore a mask for 3 years. It was almost like you traded in your actual skin for the mask you put on everyday. Jealousy does some crazy things to a person. Hadith said "Beware of Jealousy, for verily is destroys good deeds the way fire destroys wood." I learned that I know who I am, I don't need to compromise myself to please others. I know now that I am better for staying true to myself.
By the time I learned what you were doing high school was almost over and in 5 months you and most of the people in that place weren’t going to matter. We weren't going to be friends after this and I wasn't going to see you everyday--the end was near. Soon popularity wouldn't matter and what you wore and who talked to who wouldn't either.
Believe me at first I wanted to take the knife out of my back and shove it into yours. I wanted to tell everyone what you did to me, how you treated me and you treated others. However I soon realized that instead of telling everyone what I conniving person you are, I want to tell you thank you.So, I slowly and painfully took the knife out my own back. Looking at the situation I realized those boys weren’t worth it. I was young and most boys at that age aren’t what I was looking for. They were in it for one thing and when they couldn’t get it from me they got it from you.
It was never my integrity lost, it wasn’t me looking a fool or giving up a piece of myself-- it was you. You showed me the strength I had within myself and the power of the word no. Knowing that when I said no and they moved on to you showed me how I don't need them or you. I don't need to fit in and do what everyone else is doing. And, I don't need to be pressured into losing myself. I was and am confindent that I saved something special for someone special. So, thank you-- for letting me walk out of high school with self worth and dignity. I’m sorry somewhere along the way you lost both of yours.
