In my experience, you find your true best friends in high school or college. I happened to find mine in both. High school is filled with drama and chaos. You have one best friend one day and by the next week, it's a completely different person. In college it's not so easy, just like relationships, best friends can break your heart. I think I've cried over losing a close girlfriend more than I've cried over breaking up with someone to be perfectly honest. I mean, who wouldn't? You told this person secrets you wouldn't tell a significant other. You've told them about your significant other. They knew your fears, your dreams, and that embarrassing thing you did in fourth grade. Best friends are important and a vital part of growing up.
Unfortunately, best friends don't always stay your best friends. In college, I learned that very quickly when it came to my first best friend breakup. It's like someone just punched you dead in the chest, and the wind completely knocked out of you. It's definitely not a great time. I learned that people change (and yes that does include you). I learned that just because someone knows your every secret, doesn't mean they'll share it with the world when they choose to walk out. I also learned that you can't change a person's mind. They're allowed to have their own thoughts, opinions, and they're allowed to choose sides.
It's okay that best friends walk out of your life, it just means you’re growing up and that there's a new person out there waiting for you. I know this sounds like some crazy diary of a broken hearted teenager, but to be honest it'll happen until you're 60. People move on and move away. They may get married, have kids, or find a great job.
I've been angry over the years that many people have just walked out without saying a word, but I'm happy they did. In that moment, I realized that it wasn't meant to be and that there was someone else waiting for me instead. Don't think you're wasting your time on someone, they will always mean something to you in that moment; like tequila Tuesday's and drunk dancing that you'll never remember, but snap chat does. They'll remind you of spring break when you crafted for days and that time they trusted you to drive them when in reality they shouldn't have let the blind girl drive. They'll remind you that it's okay to break up with that boyfriend and okay to drink wine out of the bottle (sometimes with a straw). It's okay to go to that party even when you have an early class the next day. They'll remind you of all the great times you had in college and you'll realize why you were so sad to leave it.
The one thing they'll leave behind is a mark on your heart, and it'll always be a good one. Even though we fought and we carried on with our own lives, I can only remember the great moments with them. Those are the moments I will always carry with me.
For ND; NH; LS; thanks for trusting me to drive that one time.
