To the friend who threw me away,
I may be a little bitter but broken hearts and bitterness go hand in hand. I have had this happen too many times to count so you would think I could sniff out the bad eggs. I think I seek out people like you. People who at the time want to be the best of friends. I look forward to all the fun things we will do and how our awesome friendship is going to grow. I give 110% to it like we all should. Friends are like siblings that you get to choose, I think that makes it worse when they hurt you. I let you in and told you my secrets. It really hurts that you threw me out of your life like I was just any other stranger on the street. I do everything I can to make others happy because it rises the sun in my sky.
I would never say that I am selfless because being selfless is a myth doing nice things for other people makes me happy. That is selfish, but you were selfish too. You never asked me if I was ok when I was down, I sought you out for comfort and if the shoe was on the other foot I was at your side to help with whatever you needed. I did everything I knew how to do to be a good friend and I guess it still wasn’t good enough. You kept your plan to go from me. Truth be told it hurts more that you didn’t confide in me. Instead you threw me away like trash and didn’t say a word. You left never to be heard from again. That was the lowest blow.
I told you about my brokenness and you told me yours. I had known you for years we had been through so much. Lost friends and been there at each others side for all the heartache those losses brought. My partner in crime and best friend. It felt like you suddenly decided that you were too good for me. We started to drift apart. You were becoming someone I didn’t recognize. Acting one way around me and another around others. That was not the person I chose to be my friend. That was not the girl I knew. One thing I can thank you and your spontaneous personality change for is making it so easy for me to move on to bigger and better things. Maybe one day you will regret your actions, maybe not. But the thing is that it was you, you ruined our friendship and in the end you will be the one who is sorry for throwing me away.
People go in different directions, different life paths. I get it. I didn’t expect ours to end this way but that’s just the way it is. I don’t wish I could change things and I don’t know what more I could have done to be a better friend. I do know that I will continue to be proud of the person that I am and everything I have going for myself. I may get knocked down and hurt but I promise you this I wont be down for long and I definitely wont let your poor decision to throw me away define me.
