One of the best things in life is finding the people who make you a better person and who want you to succeed. This hasn’t always been something I’ve worried about because I know there are many people in my life right now like this. However, something changed when I met you and I didn’t feel like I was good enough for anything. I ended up starting to change who I was because I wanted to become more like you.

I’ve always been that type of person who forgives people and doesn’t exactly know when there is a toxic person in my life. Since I’ve met you, people have always warned me that our friendship wasn’t going the way that it should. For example, I would be super excited about an opportunity that I was offered, but I ended up just being knocked down by you. You would try your best to one up me and make it seem like what you were doing was more important. I would go along with this because I thought that I wasn’t as good as you were and that I needed to try harder. Sometimes I would even feel like I was below you.

My friends started to warn me that this friendship probably wasn’t the best for me. They would see me trying to get more involved to the point where I would start having breakdowns. My friends could tell that I was only doing certain things to impress others and that it wasn’t because I was passionate about them. After long nights of thinking about what more I could do to possibly to catch up to your accomplishments, I finally realized something. I realized that I am more than just a number and the experiences I’ve had on a resume.

After I realized my self-worth, I finally started to enjoy the things I was involved in. I was doing these things because I wanted to make a difference and it didn’t matter if others knew. I finally started to stick up for myself when you would start to put me down and I’m so glad I did. For once in a long time, I was proud to go tell my parents and friends about my accomplishments. I’m not going to lie, I still sometimes feel like I am not good enough. This isn’t something that you necessarily did, but it has made the problem grow bigger.

Honestly, we have had some of the best times together and I am so thankful you were there for me when I needed someone. I know that everyone goes through their own problems and I have no idea what is going on in your life. I want you to know that I will always care about you and want the best for you, but this has started to get out of hand. As of right now, this isn’t good for my mental health. I see a real friendship in you and I want that to thrive, but we’re going to have to work on this together.

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