When I first met you, I didn’t know that you were going to quickly become one of my best friends. But as time went on, we clicked and became inseparable. We made an effort to have lunch or dinner together as often as possible, made frequent shopping trips, and basically spent all of our free time together. Much of our time was spent laughing and for nearly two years, I couldn’t imagine not being friends with you.
Then we had a complete fallout, and today, I’m very thankful our friendship is over.
When we got along, things were good. I mean, you were my best friend and practically another sister. But the more I reflect back on our friendship, the more things I find wrong. That sounds incredibly petty but now that you aren’t in my life, I am relieved.
Maybe since we were so close, you thought it was okay to frequently (and publicly) point out all of my flaws and insecurities. When I would get upset over your constant nagging at me, all you would do was snap at me claiming you were “just trying to help me so I don’t embarrass myself.”
I guess since you don’t understand small town life, you saw no problem with judging my roots and where I come from. I grew up differently than you did and rather than respect that, you chose to degrade not only me but my friends and family as well.
You also took it upon yourself to make fun of me whenever I was looking forward to something. God forbid I ever mentioned being excited for something that didn’t even slightly interest you.
I could go on and on about the toxicity of our friendship but the more I reflect on our “friendship”, the more I realize I shouldn’t care anymore. I spent nearly two years ignoring your constant negative and judgmental attitude but I have made the decision to no longer waste my time on you. Dwelling on the past and someone who caused me to become as insecure as ever is not how I want to spend my time.
Looking back on our friendship, I am ashamed that I remained friends with you for so long. I understand now that being around someone toxic is incredibly detrimental to my happiness. Being friends with you taught me some valuable life lessons, to say the least, and now that you are out of my life, I promised myself that I will only associate with people who build others up rather than tear them down.
