I still think about you to this day. Maybe that surprises you, maybe it doesn't. But you were the first person to ever make me feel special, important, wanted. We weren't perfect and there are still questions I have but even today, two years later, my heart still warms when I think of you.
Thank you for helping me open my heart. Thank you for teaching me how to let loose. Thank you for showing me what it looks like to chase your dreams. You were always good at that.
I have so many memories with you that I will treasure forever. Even through the rough times you never ceased to be important to me.
I hope she makes you happy. I hope she understands how special you are. I hope she doesn't take you for granted like I did. I'm glad you're happy, that's all I want for you. No matter how much it hurts.
The hardest part is not speaking to you. We went from being friends to being more, to being strangers. I wonder how you are. I wonder if you ever got out of that little town we swore we were going to escape. I wonder if you still make people laugh as hard as you made me laugh.
When I think about us, it's hard not to feel sad. Because it feels like our time was cut so short. I wonder what would have happened if we had had more time. If I hadn't left, if I had stayed at home. Would things have ended the same way? Or would we only have grown stronger? I wonder how different our lives would be.
There are so many things I still want to say to you, so many things I wish you knew. I'm not sure whether you ever think of me or look back on us the way I do.
I hope you do.
Maybe someday we'll meet again and you'll see me and remember the fun we had. Maybe someday we'll be able to talk like we used to. Maybe someday our paths will cross when we're older and time has hardened us.
You were the first boy I ever really fell for. You were so important to me then and still are now. I hope you know that and always remember it.
