Hey Dad,

Remember me? Your daughter? We don't have the typical father-daughter relationship. You have never been around long enough to try and build anything with me. You've never told me to go do my homework before I could go outside. You weren't around when I had my first heartbreak. I still to this day think about the relationship we could have had. You could have walked me to my bus stop on my first day of school and wished me luck. You could have went with me to my daddy and daughter dance when I was in Girl Scouts instead of my mom's husband at the time. If we had the relationship you could be walking me down the aisle when I get married, but you won't even be there.

My mom raised me into the woman I am today. She raised me and my siblings all on her own. She even put up with my nonsense with all the health issues she has. She woke up every morning to get me to school on time, babysat kids for a living to make sure she was home when I got off the bus. She was the only one to ever be at my school events smiling proudly at me. Maybe I didn't have what I wanted all the time, but she always made sure I had what I needed. She has bent over backwards to give me what I need and more and all you have done my whole life is cause me pain and tears. The past 20 years I have spent Mother's Day and Fathers Day with my mom. I use to be upset that I wouldn't be with the guy who gave me life but now I just think my mom is my dad.

My whole life I would punish myself for you not being around. I would come up with reasons for why you didn't love me enough. At one point in time I convinced myself I wasn't good enough to have a daddy like all the other girls at school. I became depressed and had to see a counselor and be put on medication. I remember one day after one of my appointments I called you asking if you would come with me to one of my meetings to try and fix our relationship and I still remember to this day what your response was "Why would I want to do anything like that?" After that day I gave up all hope for us. I stopped trying. I stopped the phone calls. You would tell people you always tried contacting me. Lies. You missed holidays and my birthdays.

Every time my mom is in a relationship, you always say, "He is the man of the house, it's his responsibility to take care of you" since when wasn't it your responsibility to take care of your child? How could you live with yourself knowing another man is taking care of your daughter? How can you go to sleep every night knowing you have no part of raising me, molding me into the woman I am today? I really really hope one day you wake up and feel guilty that you had no part in my life.

You have taught me something even if you don't know it. You taught me to never ever do what you have done to me towards my own children. I know how it feels and it is one of the worst things to go through in life, growing up without a parent. I may say I hate you but deep down I don't and I can't even if I tried because of you I am here. You gave me my life even if you have no part in it.

I have accomplished a lot in my years on earth and I am proud to say I did it all without the help of you. I am sorry you missed out.

I wish you the best in life.

Love always,

Your Daughter.