If you asked me a couple years ago I would have never pictured myself writing this. I remember the first time we met. I remember talking to you every night until one of us fell asleep. I remember the first time I realized I was in love with you.I never knew what people meant by feeling butterflies in their stomach till you came along. I remember trying to plan our future wedding and we would name our kids. You made me feel like I was on cloud nine, you were my first love. You were also the person who turned my life upside down, my first heartbreak.
For awhile you were my everything and meant everything. When we first broke up I literally did not know what to do with myself. I cried so many times I didn't think I had any tears left in me. Never in my life had I felt so betrayed and hurt. You were my best friend. I could tell everyone how I'm so much better off without you. I could also go around telling everyone how much I hate you because it would make my life easier.
The thing is, it would just be a lie.
As these days go by there are still so many things that run through my mind. Sometimes I want to just text you and see how you are doing, but I wouldn't want to bother you. There are still things that i wish you knew. Even though you hurt me pretty badly I think you deserve to hear it.
I want you to know that I loved you. I loved you through every emotional part of the roller coaster you have brought into my life. I loved you on days where I didn't want to be loved. I loved you even when you decided you didn't love me anymore.
Since you nobody new stands a chance. Although what we had was wonderful, I compare everyone to you. My head says one thing while my heart is saying another. I never imagined myself finding someone better.
When you walked out of my life it killed me. It felt like a piece of me was missing. There wasn't anything I wouldn't have done to get it back. You were the first and only person I had ever given my heart to.
Till this day, I still have all of your belongings. I use to wear all of your clothes to bed because they reminded me of you. Now they just sit in boxes in my closet with all of the memories. I never gave them back because that would mean that it is actual all over.
Lastly, I would like to say that I do not regret being with you. While we were together it felt like we could take on the world. Instead of just saying things as you and me, it became we.
We may have started our fairytale at the wrong time, but every fairytale eventually has its happy ending. I wish you nothing but the best and that someday our paths will cross again.
