I was 24 years old and you were just trying to make me happy. As silly as it sounds, I wasn't ready to be happy. I was living in a toxic environment just trying to hold myself together. Happiness wasn't on the horizon; survival was the only thing on my mind.

No one had ever put me first before themselves but you did. I had never felt that before and it didn't make sense to me. I see now that you were trying to live life with me. You were trying to give me life experiences; which was exactly what I needed.

You spoke about the future and made plans for us but I was scared. There were so many factors in play.

I knew when you said you'd be there for me no matter what, that you meant it. Hearing those words come out of your mouth scared me. No one had been there for me before, not even people who were supposed to. In my eyes, I was baffled how someone who hadn't known me that long could be there? You proved me wrong, you were there.

Now, years later, a second chance might be possible in the future. If I really have a second chance, I want it to be with you. I'm already stuck on the what could have been.

If I could do it all again, I wish I could say I'd make different decisions. However, the decision to walk away from us and what we could have been was probably the best decision I had ever made. I'm happy to still have you in my life as a friend. I want you to be happy. I truly hope you're happy with her and that she treats you well. I sincerely believe that you are an amazing guy and that you deserve the world.