We all have that one person in our life who has made us into the person we are now.

Whether that’s a good thing or a bad thing, we’ll never know. We can’t go back in time and change anything that’s happened. That’s exactly why exes need to stay in the past, which is something that I learned the hard way.

It was silly of me to think that after a year of being apart, that you could have wanted to be different with me.

What we had when we were dating was toxic and not love. I tried so hard to be what you wanted when we tried again, but I had too much faith in you. Whenever I tried to do cute things, you would just turn me down. Whenever you did something wrong, you would make it my fault. How silly of me to think you had actually changed?

I don’t know how else to put it, but you broke my heart so many times.

Even when we weren’t dating, you still found ways to break it. You would deliberately post things to make me jealous. You would pretend like you didn’t know me when you saw me in person. Most importantly, you were embarrassed to be seen with me because people knew our history together. You have never once stopped and thought about how your actions affect me.

I hope one day you realize that you lost a girl who would have dropped everything for you.

You lost someone who supported your every move and was there when you fell. You lost someone who would forgive you, even when you didn’t deserve it. You lost a girl who wanted to be your world, but you were too busy playing with her heart.

I don’t know if you’ll ever see this, but just know that I want the best for you.

Even though nobody in our lives supported us together, I still will wonder what would have happened if we ended up together. I’m tired of giving you any more chances though, my heart physically can’t handle it. I’ve always been so forgiving because I’ve wanted to see the best in you, but even after time spent apart you haven’t matured enough. I can only hope that one day you mature enough to appreciate little details.

Thank you for helping me realize that I deserve someone who is proud to show me off to his friends.

I deserve someone who doesn’t use my weaknesses against me. I deserve someone who supports my passions and aspirations in life. Yes, that means I deserve someone who values what I want to major in because he sees how much it means to me. I deserve to be treated with respect and to be treated with care. I’m no longer giving you the chance to treat me in those ways.