We've all been in that position of liking someone who just isn't ready to fully commit to a relationship. We've all heard those eleven words spurred out, "I'm just not ready to be in a relationship right now." In my opinion, half of the time these words are just said to buy time. They are said because someone believes that their significant other will change and we believe them because we think that down the line the person will really want to be with us. Coming from someone who has been there, if someone isn't ready to fully commit you should just throw in the towel not because you don’t care about this person but because you deserve to be with someone who wants to be all in with you from day one.

To the boy who just wasn't ready,

Let me start this off by saying that there are no hard feelings. I care about you, and I truly do value the time that we did spend together. I think you and I were a case of poor timing because we really had the potential to be something great. You are everything that I have always been attracted to, you are just my type and I was for you as well. However, this letter isn't about how wonderful we could've been but rather about how we were impacted by your lack of commitment.

You made me feel something that I have not felt since the past heartbreaks I have endured over the last couple of years. You made me feel beautiful, cared for, vulnerable, and most of all -- wanted. Going hand in hand with that, thank you for making me feel all of the highs of a relationship, even though this was not even a true relationship but rather an “almost something.” On the contrary, you also made me feel all of the lows that a girl feels when the person she wants to be with just won’t fully commit. You made me feel insecure, obsessive, needy, uncared for, and most of all, not wanted. As you will probably notice, I expressed wanted and cared for under both the highs and lows because at the end of the day I felt them in both cases. Situation to situation, day to day, month to month, you made me feel every single emotion in the book. And for that, I truly do thank you.

I needed to be reminded of what is like to be in “relationship" or whatever you want to call the several months we spent together. I needed to be reminded of what butterflies felt like and I needed to be reminded of what it meant to make time to prioritize someone else. I needed to be reminded of how excited I get when I like someone, I needed to relearn these aspects of myself. But relationships are a two-way street and I guess through your lack of complete commitment you thought you didn't need to work at whatever it was we were.

You canceling our plans as well as your making excuses not to hang out with me made me feel as though you really did not care about whether or not we were together. If you didn’t want to spend more time with me then I guess it just meant that you weren’t as invested in us as I was. I do not know about most people, but in my opinion, the first couple of months a “couple” spends together are the “honeymoon phase” in which the pair wants to spend as much time with each other as possible. You prioritized everything else over me, and that’s okay, it is your time and you have the freedom to do whatever you want with it. However, I just would like to note that half of the time that you didn’t prioritize me it was because you wanted to “rest”, “do homework”, or “watch Netflix.”

I guess you wanted to do these things alone instead of having my company because in the grand scheme of things homework dates, cuddling on the couch, and watching television are all things that we could’ve done together. These are things I would've loved to have done with you, these are things that although so simple I love. At the end of the day, as many times as you said we would spend more time with each other, I had let myself forget that your actions always spoke louder than your words.

As The Perks of Being a Wallflower says "We accept the love we think we deserve" and most of us really do. We think that for whatever reason if we are caught in this exclusive “almost relationship” it is because we deserve it. We think that for whatever reason we are not worthy of someone wanting to fully commit, but we are wrong. We deserve so much more. We deserve someone who would want to do anything and everything for us. We deserve someone who would validate our feelings. We deserve someone who would want to take us out and show us to the world. We are worthy of tangible, simple, and beautiful love. Unfortunately for me you didn’t want to be that guy and that’s fine, because unfortunately for you I’ll always just be the girl that got away.