I hope you realize what you lost. Even If you don’t know now, you will. She’s the kind of girl a boy falls in love with when he’s too young and one way or another, he messes it up, because there is too much “living to do.”
Later on down the road, when you try and settle down- you will find it nearly impossible. You will find it nearly impossible because in the back of your mind she is there- where she’s been since the day you walked away. And with every girl you date, none of them will compare. Eventually, you will settle and pick someone else, you might even love her- but it won't be like what you had.
The crippling memories of homecoming dances and late night food runs, with her in your passenger seat, will leave you breathless at times- because in those moments- in those beautiful memories you replay in your mind at night, when the world goes dark and quiet- it’s then that you'll realize you have already had the best days of your life. And like a fool, you let them go without a second glance.
You really hurt her you know, but you didn’t break her. No, She’s too strong for that. Even though she may argue and say there were times she felt broken- she moved on. After all the tears and heartache- she will love again.
You know what kills me the most? When she cried, it wasn’t for herself- it was for you. Even after you tried to take everything from her, even after you left her with nothing- she cried for you. That’s how powerful her love is.
Sadly, for you, it will never be the same. And luckily, for her, that’s something you can’t take from her. No matter how many games of “keep away” you play with her heart, or how often you gamble with her emotions, the way she loves is something you will never be able to take from her. She might be smarter about who she loves next time, but the quality of that love can never be tarnished.
I used to want to hurt you after I saw what you did to her. But, the truth is, you’ve already hurt yourself in the worst possible way- letting go of her the way you did. You took her forgranted- as if you deserved the way she loved you. Seeing her get stronger, though she might not even see it herself, I know now she will be fine. You, however, I’m not so sure. You can tell yourself it was worth it- this risk you took letting her go- I hope “living” was worth letting go of the most unselfish love you’ll ever know.
-Sincerely, The One Who Watched Her Heal.
