I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss you some days. We had some really great memories together. From late night FaceTime calls where we would talk for hours about our crushes, our dreams and our fears, to our dinner dates and all of the in-betweens. We spent a lot of time together, we were always in contact. I thought you were my rock, my go to, my bestfriend. But, things drastically changed in the blink of an eye. I didn't expect it when it happened, and I honestly wasn't prepared for it either. I didn't think you'd be one of the people in my life to hurt me. I didn't know you had it in you to betray me for your own selfish reasoning. I remember everything like it was yesterday, the feeling in my heart that the person I've told everything to was the same person who kept a huge secret from me.

I was filled with so much confusion, how could my best friend stab me in the back? How could you keep a secret like this from me for months? Did you honestly think I was going to get over this?

You hurt me nearly six months ago. I lost my best friend six months ago and it's been weird having to move on and adjust without you. But it was a huge blessing in disguise. I've grown, I've learned so much more about myself than I ever have. I realized that I'm better off without you. That's not meant to be nasty, but it is true. I always felt in competition with you, from plans to boys. I always felt in competition with all your other friends because the second you left you were with someone new and it honestly made me feel replaceable. But losing you made me realize that I'm actually the irreparable one.

I know that I have my flaws and my insecurities, but I'm one hell of a loving person. Your success made me happy, your battles were my battles, your messes were mine to clean up. I never left you hanging and I was always a diary you could turn to, to keep your secrets.

Your mistake does not define me as a friend nor does it define my worth as a person. I thought that you were my life vest and without you I would drown. But, here I am afloat and happy. Even better, I've realized the warning signs of dangerous friends. But, I've also learned that the true friends I do have are absolute blessings sent from God himself and I need to show more thanks to them.

It's been six months since we've been friends, and it's been a strange journey without you. I was so dependent on you that losing you as a friend I was forced to find myself again. I finally looked in the mirror and found the green-eyed girl that's been missing for so long.

So... through all the anger and sadness I had because of you, it's been transformed into gratitude. Thank you for being insincere, thank you for hurting me the way you did, but also thank you for the wonderful memories we created when we were inseparable for I do look back on them. I do still wonder how you're doing and I truly hope you're doing well. Your happiness was my happiness and always will be. Thank you for the impact you've made in my life, without you I wouldn't be who I am today.

Losing you was hard, but it was necessary. I hope you found as much peace in this as I have.