Regardless, I love you.
You've been there for me when I needed someone emotionally, mentally, physically, and soulfully. No matter how many times I come second now, you'll still always be first.
The amount of times you've picked up the pieces for me when I had my heart broken, lost a close volleyball game, or "didn't have him call me back" kind of night, I'm genuinely forever indebted to you.
A lot of people told me early on in High School that after you graduate, you find out who your real friends are, and it's true. I've had many go, and few stay, and you were one of those few. For that, I thank you.
It's harder now because we're even older than our high school graduation days, and it isn't as easy to see one another everyday.
We have new boyfriends that we live with, new jobs, and new responsibilities.
We have different friend groups now, we're not as close distance wise as we once were, and life isn't as easy as riding a bus to the same location 5 days a week and catching up.
The point I'm making is, I miss you. I try my hardest to postpone my workout, get my school work done early, have date-night with the boyfriend another time. I guess when it's all said and done, I want the same thing in return.
The sad truth is, I'm not. Not only am I not getting the same in return, but you're choosing a lifestyle you never would have chosen before, over me.
I get it, you're an adult, and you can make you're own decisions, I just wish when you were making them, you'd think of me and your family a little more. No matter how many times you go out and get sh*t faced, you know at the end of the night if you're belligerently drunk, walking down the street with no ride home, I'll stop what I'm doing at 3 am to come and pick you up. I'll tuck you into bed, and put a bucket right by your side for when it gets to be too much for you.
It doesn't matter how many times you choose this lifestyle over me, I'll be here. You were there for me, and I'll be there for you. Just remember that even on those nights where getting drunk seems like the best time, all you may really need here and there is a pizza, wine, and scary movie night. Just like we use to when we were in high school.
I can't sit here and tell you how to live your life. I can't even tell you how I wish you'd live your life because it isn't mine to live nor decide. I'm just telling you that a lot of best friends maybe would have been gone by now, but I refuse.
I won't let this phase take a friendship of 13 years away and turn it to sh*t. In a world of friendships that die religiously over boys, lies, and separation..I want to be the friendship that despite the downs, we only stay up.
I know this party stage is important, and hey, I'll even go with you a time or two. Just never forget where your home is, and I promise to never forget either.
Love,
your best friend
