Everything I Wish I Could Say To My Once-Best Friend

Everything I Wish I Could Say To My Once-Best Friend

It's all the emotions, thoughts, and feelings bottled up from the past year and a half.

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This is everything I wish I could say to my old best friend. It's nothing more, nothing less. It's basically all the emotions, thoughts, and feelings I've kept inside for the past year and a half. It's not super interesting, but you could probably relate to it if you lost your best friend due to nothing more than distance.

I promised you we'd still be friends, that we'd still keep in touch. I promised we'd still go to concerts together, even though that All Time Low one in Orlando, a week before I left for college, was the last one I went to. Instead of concerts, I opted for sorority philanthropy events and studying and work. You kept going to concerts. And as much as I love being busy, nothing could beat the rush of energy during a concert with you.

It was after we had both gotten boyfriends and neither of us told each other about them, that I realized things were different. We hardly talked, unless it was for our own benefit. When I was home over summer, we didn't hang out once, even though I live 15 minutes away from you. Our schedules kept conflicting and eventually I gave up and I went back to college.

I can barely pass a Dunkin' Donuts without thinking about you. It's dumb, I know. But, you're the reason I love iced coffee and specifically Dunkin's iced coffee. When I go on late night adventures with my roommates, I think about our own little late night adventures and coffee runs. I wish they would listen to rock, like us, but I think it may rub salt in my wounds.

There are certain songs and bands I can't listen to without thinking about you. I can't stop remembering how it felt to dance and sing along to our favorite bands in the car. I go through old photos on my phone, just so I can relive old memories in a place where things were easier and happier.

I wish you were here with me. Probably just as you wish I hadn't moved away. I wish you were able to watch me and help me grow, as much as I wish I could with you. Even though I've gained more friends and, thankfully, amazing roommates, it doesn't mean that there's no room for you in my life anymore. Sure, a small distance is a little bit of a barrier, but we told each other almost everything. I miss being able to tell you about my life and I miss being able to listen about yours. I miss complaining together about homework, work, and boys.

I miss being real with each other during our worst days and supporting each other during these times. I miss coffee dates, cats, and concerts. Really, nothing is quite the same without you.

I miss being best friends.

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To My Best Friend Who Taught Me What True Friendship Is, I Can't Thank You Enough

"To the person who will love you endlessly, love her with kindness and understanding."
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Dear Best Friend,

You have been a part of my life for quite some time now. You have seen my good, bad, and ugly sides and have stuck by my side through it all. I don't know if I could ever find the words to truly thank you for everything your friendship has given me, but I am definitely going to try.

Our lives have taken some twist and turn these past few years, but we have stayed strong through it all.

Thank you for judging me just the right amount.

Throughout our friendship, I have made some very questionable decisions. A lot of people would say "thanks for never judging me," but I feel like everyone needs a best friend who's going to tell them how it is, to tell them when they are about to make a bad decision or how to avoid something worse from happening. You have always told me how it is (even when I don't always want to hear it), but I know that I can come to you whenever I need someone to set me straight.

You're always down to do nothing with me.

I think that you are the one person that I can call up to hang out and do absolutely nothing with and have a good time. From the nights sitting in and playing card games to ordering Chinese food and watching an entire Netflix series while I dance around with the cat: I know that we could do anything, and nothing together and it would be fun.

But also, you're always down to get lit with me.

I swear one day we will be two old moms at a bar drinking vodka crans and laughing about the stupid shit our husbands and children do. You're always down to go out and have a good time. Even if everyone else we're with is miserable, we find a way to laugh at ourselves.

You are one of the few constant things in my life.

I've lost a lot of friends in my life, but you have stayed by my side through everything. I can't remember the last time we actually fought about anything, but even when we do we can't stay mad at each other for more than a day. I know we will be in each other's lives until we literally keel over.

I want you yo know that you're the strongest person I know.

You've dealt with things that not many people go through ever in their life. You have always been so mature, and you handle everything with grace. You inspire me every day with your goals and successes and I am so proud of you and all of your accomplishments.

Above all else, you deserve the world.

It's so easy to get caught up in your own mind and think that you deserve the things that happen to you, but please know that the only thing you deserve is happiness. Please settle for nothing short of that. It may take a bit to find your happiness, but I will be there every step of the way. You're a remarkable human being, and I want nothing but the best for you.

To the person who will hold your heart someday, please do not break it. To the person who may wrong you, you will regret it forever. To the person who will love you endlessly, love her with kindness and understanding.

You, my best friend, future bridesmaid, godmother of my children, the person to bail me out of jail, the one who lets me cry on their couch for twelve hours,

I love you.

I will cherish our friendship forever. Thank you for being you.

Love always,

Your best friend.

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18 Things You Know To Be True If You Are A Dancer

#Dancerproblems.

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It's the night before my first dance competition of the season, so of course I'm going to write about dance. Without further ado here are 26 of the most common things you know if like me, you are a dancer.

1. You are constantly choreographing dances in your head.

It doesn't matter what song you are jamming out to, without fail, you find yourself choreographing dances, even at 2:00 AM.

2. You always find a way to practice your solos or dances for competition.

Even if you have a small space to work with, NOTHING, and I mean absolutely nothing will stop you from practicing.

3. You are constantly trying to better your technique.

All day, every day, it doesn't matter if you're working on turn combinations or bettering your tap technique, not a day goes by that you don't work on it.

4. You have a "dance drawer" in your dresser.

Leotards, tights, and booty shorts, oh my!

5. The studio is like your second home and your team is like your second family.

There's really no explanation needed.

6. You feel like you never get enough time in the studio.

Because there's no such thing as "too much dance"

7. Your weekends always consist of a dance private

Literally almost every weekend

8. You're not embarrassed about going out in public while wearing dance clothes.

And you don't care if people look at you funny for wearing your leotard and company jacket to a restaurant.

9. Your company jacket is your jacket of choice.

You've gotta represent your studio, plus it's sooo comfortable.

10. Forget the holidays, competition season is the most wonderful time of the year.

I love competition season so much!

11. You're always losing bobby pins.

Gotta love those sock buns that take you literally 15 minutes to do, and the ridiculous amount of bobby pins that you use just so your bun can stay in tact.

12. You have regular earrings and then you have dance competition earrings.

Those big sparkly earrings are always fun to wear.

13. Your Instagram explore page is full of videos of other dancers.

What can I say, I just love dance.

14. The phrase "I can't, I have dance" is one you say all the time

I apologize to all of my friends and family who I try to make plans with but can't follow through because of dance privates.

15. The same goes for "5, 6, 7, 8"

I am so guilty of this one.

16. People ask you if what you do is like what they watch on "Dance Moms"

And you reply with "Sort of, but not exactly"

17. Sometimes you just randomly strike a dance pose.

For me, it has always been , and always will be an arabesque.

18. Your mom is the best dance mom ever, and you dad is the best dance dad ever.

They honestly are, I couldn't do any of this without my wonderful parents and am so thankful that they continue to support me in doing something that I absolutely love.

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