Like most people, I struggle with vulnerability and self-love. This letter is to remind myself who I am and who I want to be.

Lately, people have been telling me that I've changed... they're not wrong but they're also not right if they can't acknowledge that it was bound to happen. I made a huge decision to move across the U.S. and I've sacrificed so much for the asdzaan I want to be.

I debated whether or not to share it online at all. Yet, here it is because the internet is forever and I want to remember this letter forever.

In time, my biggest prayer is that the path I am on will lead me to the woman that the Creator intended me to be. I wish the same for anyone that chooses to read this.

To the readers, I'm rooting for your journey of self-love to your best side. I encourage you to write to yourself as a reminder. Validate yourself and be your own source of happiness. I hope you find beauty in your insecurities.

Your tummy rolls. Your scarred, textured, and different toned skin. Your curls when you sweat or stay in the humidity too long.

Your shy athletic ability. Your body hair that you have tried so hard to get rid of. Your double chin that you try to hide by never looking up from your feet.

Your smile that takes up your entire face and hides your eyes. Your small chest. Your stretch marks on your arms, backside, and thighs.

Your oddly placed birthmarks. Your deep-seated dear of disappointment. Your inability to place boundaries.

Your small teeth and everything you never want to admit about yourself.

I hope you find the girl you want to become. Patient. Happy.

Emotionally strong to never depend on anyone to make you feel comfortable in your own skin. Physically strong to run far and nonstop without a desire to.

Spiritually strong to pray every day in all your dimensions of faith. Caring nature but will prioritize yourself first. Hopeful and optimistic.

Not quick to anger or to lash out. Knowledgeable with tradition and Western teachings.

I hope you become the woman who walks into a room and people want to smile because you're there.

I hope you become the one to break the cycle of bitter stubbornness.

I hope you are the only one to make yourself happy no matter what hardship you come across.

I hope you are the friend that people will never walk away from because they have to reason to.

I hope you find happiness in the smallest actions and words.

I hope you make that dream home for yourself.

I hope you have a big herd of sheep to love and raise for your family to share in.

I hope you speak your language to your children.

I hope you are your own queen with no need for a white knight.

I hope you open your eyes and forgive yourself for your own mistakes.

I hope you experience the world and its gifts – the good and the bad.

I hope you find the storm that you are looking for

I hope you find a career that makes you happy as you travel to work and make a difference.

I hope you keep that head up to look haters in the eye and ask them why they wish you ill will.

I hope you find it in your heart to forgive them for trying to tear you down.

I hope you understand the importance of humility and teach that to your children.

I hope you see countless sunsets and sunrises decorated with different landscapes, patterned clouds, and painted in colors of warmth.

I hope you find reasons to dance to different music and never see a reason to be embarrassed.

I hope you carry endless blessings with you to make you randomly smile and giggle to yourself.

I hope you protect what you've given up so much in order to build.

I hope you make everyone who has ever cared about you proud beyond measure.

I hope you take moments to commit to memory rather than commit to a picture.

I hope you realize how far you have come from being a girl with two parents to one and have tried to mother so many others.

I hope you stay close with your brothers and sisters.

I hope you forgave your dad for the things he has done onto you, your mom, and your sister.

I hope you find a life-long partner who does not depend on you, who smiles at your asshole jokes, who laughs til you tell them to stop, who eats tacos/hot lays/steak/mutton/chili, who drinks Corona/strong coffee/water/and tea with you, who will put your legs on their lap to massage them and turn that into tickles/snuggles/and love, who is loud and open with your family, who the women in my family can consider family and friend, who pisses me off but makes me smile, and is everything that I never expected to help me grow.

I hope you and ba'ii girl deezhi find time to continue adventures with mom.

I hope you find a new relationship with dad.

I hope you learn all you can about grandma.

I hope you never forget to thank the fireplace.

I hope you find every reason to let the pain go.

I hope you and Best Friend are still best friends that still take care of each other.

I hope you still pray in the teepee with peyote.

I hope you still write Diane.

I hope you add to this list every time you want to find a reason to love yourself even more.