I spent three years loving, and giving my all to a boy, until one day it just abruptly ended. I was left heartbroken and devastated. I felt as if my life was over. Until one morning I woke up and realized I don't need him to be happy. I realized I am strong and amazing human being. And without him breaking my heart, I may have never realized it.
To My Ex:
Thank you. Thank you for teaching me my worth. Thank you for teaching me what to expect and what not to expect in a relationship. Thank you for teaching me to not put up with anyone who wants to put me down.
I used to hear your name and just think of all the anger I had towards you. What was once years full of love, had turned into months of hatred. You were my source of happiness.. I relied on you to be happy. If you were happy, then so was I. But if you were having a bad day, then so was I. I relied on you to be my root of happiness, support, and everything else I needed. And for that I'm sorry. I am sorry for relying on you so much and for thinking I needed you.
Thank you for teaching me strength. I spent weeks crying, not wanting to leave my bed. Thinking, "how will I ever survive without this boy"? But here I am, seven months later.. Not only surviving, but succeeding, without you.
Thank you for helping me realize who my real friends are. Without my heart being broken by you, I would have never needed my friends' love and support-ultimately showing me who is truly there for me.
Thank you for teaching me that I am important and that it is okay to be selfish. I used to always put you and your needs first. I looked to you for validation, always doing and saying things that I knew would make you happy. And that was unfair to me-and I know to only care about one person's opinion about me… and that's me. Your happiness and health was the most important thing to me. But now I've learned I should always put myself first, because in the end I will always have myself. I am worth more than the way I was treated. And because of you, I now know that. You taught me to never settle for less than what I deserve, so thank you.
Sure I've heard Alexander Bell's quote, " When one door closes another door opens", but I never really believed that. But again, because of you I have. So thank you for truly teaching me, that just because I think something or someone is good for me, doesn't always mean I am right. God puts people in and out of my life for a reason. So by allowing you to leave my life, he was ultimately telling me you weren't what's best for me. I was so angry at Him, thinking that you were my true love, and that I needed you in my life. But I was wrong. I don't need you. I don't need anyone, except myself.
But thank you. Thank you for showing me what I should and shouldn't put up with in a relationship. Thank you for showing me, my worth and how strong I am. Thank you for helping me realize who my real support system is. Thank you for teaching me lessons, I never knew I needed.
