Hey there,
I know it's been a while since we talked and I know we aren't the best of friends anymore but I sincerely hope you are okay. I actually think about you a lot and I still worry. I realize that maybe worrying so much really isn't my place anymore, but the fact is that I will always care so much about you. You are a wonderful person and I consider it a blessing to have had you as part of my life. But for now, you need to focus on what you need, what is going to get you through the day, and what is going to make you feel amazing.
I know how much you've been through in your life. You never felt like you were good enough, no matter how many times you were told you were. You can't help but compare yourself to every single person you see. You can't see the sparkle in your eyes, the cute way you begin a smile, or the way you blush when someone compliments you. I wish all the compliments in the world could make you realize how perfect you are. But the truth is no one can make you feel better about yourself. That part is all up to you. Although, you can count on the people around you to support you through your process of self-acceptance. You'll have bad days and good days, but those who love you will always be there (either in body or spirit).
I wish we were still as close as we used to be. The late night phone calls, the deep talks, I miss it all. I understand why we drifted apart. You really just needed time to focus on yourself. I know it's selfish of me to say, but I really miss you and I wish we never would have stopped talking. It hurts to know that no matter what I could've said or done that things would have still turned out the same.
Now, I see your posts on social media of you trying to pretend like you're having so much fun. It seems like you are trying to prove to everyone - and yourself - that your life is beyond amazing and you're actually doing great. Other people may be fooled but not me. I know you too well. I just hope that some day you actually are as happy as you pretend to be.
Remember - you are an amazing person. You always have been and you always will be. We may have stopped talking, but I still love you and I still care about you. Please no matter how many months go by, always remember that I am here for you. It could be 3 am on a Tuesday night and I will answer if you call. I want to be here for you, whatever you need. Take care of yourself for me. You are worth it.
Sincerely,
A Dear Old, Loving Friend
