For years, I have fed in to the bull you told me. You took my innocence and replaced it with bitterness and darkness. You came in without so much as an invite. You fed on my sadness and amplified it. You used my own follies to convince me I myself was a flaw. You corrupted my mind with utter nonsense. I convinced me that my weaknesses made me a weak person. You hurt the people I love with all my heart. You made me turn against myself. You made me lose trust in everyone. You hurt me so I would hurt others. You made it seem like they were the ones that were hurting me when really it was you all along; and you took that and fed off of it. You made me do things I never would've done otherwise. You tried to tell me that I had no purpose in this life; that no one would miss me if I were gone; that they are better off without me. You tried to make me push everyone away so I would end up alone. You gave me insecurities and fed my subconscious graphic imaging of a false prophecy. You did it all with one goal.. my ultimate death.

Well, perhaps you should've thought more before you chose your host.

I know all about you. You are known as the silent killer. You don't inflict any physical damage. No, instead you warp our own thoughts to where we inflict it on ourselves. You're too cowardice to do anything yourself. Instead, you force us to do all the dirty work. You corrupt our minds to the point our physique can no longer take it. You cause tears and chest pain without anything being wrong. You make us think we are monsters. You make us believe in lie after lie. But you are nothing but a cloud. A dark, very powerful cloud that takes over any source of light. I know you have warped my thoughts to believe all your lies. About my future, about my friends, about me. I know you're game.. and I'm getting really annoyed of playing it.

You may have gotten my mind, but you aren't getting my heart.

You see, my heart is a lot stronger than you gave it credit for. It brings light and joy to all those I love. It is a manifestation of all the love and care I hold inside me. It allows me to hold precious moments and wisdom I gain as I travel through my life. It always leads me down the path of solace; down the path of my bright future. I admit my mind is weak, it succumbs quite easily to hatred and bitterness. Hell, even when it doesn't, you make sure to completely take it over so there's no chance of me fixing it. My heart has taken so much of your torture. You inflicted so much pain on it just to get me to submit it to darkness, so I will take the ultimate step and finally end my life.

I'm sorry to disappoint you, but that's never happening.

You can feed me false perceptions, you can cause me all the mental disarray you want. You can make me bitter and turn against those I love. You can push me down over and over and over again. But no matter what, I'm always just gonna get right back up again. I'll continue to fight you until my last dying breath, which will NOT be at your hand! My heart will always guide me back towards to light, and someday, it may even be strong enough to beat you for good! So go ahead, take away my happiness, take away my sanity, take away every little ounce of dignity I have. Try all you want to turn me into a real monster that doesn't care who she hurts. Try all you want to make me hate myself so much that I kill myself. Try all you want to corrupt my heart.. but you never will. You will never win.

I'm a lot stronger than you gave me credit for.