Phonies,

Call me bitter if you want, but unlike you, I invest a lot in my friendships. No, I don't think I'm clingy, but I think it's fair that I feel the way I feel when I'm basically irrelevant in your lives now. I don't expect you to read this and run to me, trying to prove that what I say and observe isn't true. But, if you truly feel the need to distance yourselves from me, I'd rather you say so instead of ignoring me in the process.

I just want to move forward and express the anger I've held in for months.

The problem is that I definitely make friends easily, and easily I don't realize that they aren't genuine. I know that just because we make lunch dates, bump into each other at parties or events, or talk and like each other's posts on social media, it doesn't mean we're necessarily friends. But, if I decide to open myself up to you compared to everyone else, I expect you to understand and support that.

If you don't want to be around me, say no. Cut me off. That would hurt a little less than being ignored.

I come from a family where no one talks to each other, and considering how isolated I've been from it, you're adding on to my isolation by pushing me aside for other friends.

Also, miss me with the "I've been busy" shit because if you were, you wouldn't be posting social media party photos with your group of friends— it wouldn't take me to message you first. It wouldn't take this addressing for you to say something now. I've literally met friends who say they're busy, but they can make time for others.

'Busy' is your excuse for avoiding me because you don't want me in your time frame.

I'm over it. Whatever. I don't care anymore.

I'm sorry that I'm not relatable enough. I'm sorry that maybe I'm not the friend you'd like to be around. I'm sorry that I'm too boring, dark, negative, or different than you are. I'm sorry that I even decided to open up to you.

I'm sorry I'm too passionate about this. I'm sorry that I'm even apologizing for my devotion to a friendship that's one-sided.

Anyway, I wish you the best if you choose to speak up after this. Other than that, you suck.

Good luck.