The day you left was the day that I felt
The Earth shift,
Time froze.
I was in complete
Shell shock.
All my senses
Vanished.
My appetite had ceased to exist
Thankfully, temporarily
In that moment all I could think was
“I did something wrong.”
“What could I have done to make you leave?”
“It is all my fault.”
“You hate me.”
But the main question in mind was…
Why?
Why did you leave?
Why couldn’t have we worked this out?
Why did you break your promises?
Promises.
Promises that seemed attainable at the moment.
Promises that seemed so easy to keep.
With a blink of an eye,
All of those promises became
Empty.
The moment those promises became empty,
So did my heart.
Ice coursed through my veins.
Motivation was on a massive decline.
My once shining, bright eyes
Turned dull.
The only thing that shined anymore was
The trickle of a single tear from my
Left eye.
Decisions were made,
Walls were built,
We haven’t spoken sense.
Days turned into weeks that turned into months.
Sleepless nights became a routine.
A day wouldn’t be considered
Normal
If I didn’t break down at least once.
I was tired.
Tired of holding this burden
In my heart.
I needed change, and I needed it
NOW.
Pictures were deleted,
Memories had fade.
I broke old habits and routines
That ensured that I wouldn’t have to see
You.
I am not going to lie
When I say that it broke my heart to give up something that
I love,
Just to get away from you.
But I will admit,
That leaving was for the best
For me.
Since you left,
I have felt
Free,
Unbothered,
And most importantly,
Happy.
Happy with my education,
Happy with my family,
Happy with my closest friends
That I hold near and dear
To my heart.
Most of all,
I am happy with me.
I am happy with my life,
I am happy about where I am going to be
In the months to come.
I am happy about
My future.
I have discovered little things I can do for
Myself
That make my heart and soul feel full.
I am satisfied,
Content,
Relieved.
I would be lying if I said I didn’t think about
You.
What you’re up to,
How your life has been,
If you’re doing well?
You were my go to person,
My number one.
The time we spent together
Are times I will never forget.
The short-lived time frame that you were
In my life,
Have shaped me into the person
That I am becoming.
With that being said,
I want to take an opportunity and say
Thank you.
Thank you for having an impact on me.
Thank you for showing me what I deserve.
Thank you for spending time with me.
And finally,
Thank you for setting me free
And showing me what it is like
To thrive and survive,
All on my own.
