I've always noticed one thing about myself and that was that I needed reassurance. I needed to know everything was going to be okay. This was probably due to my high anxiety, but I was always the person figuring out plans and routines. I don't know why I focus on getting so much reassurance, but some fair things came up that made me think about it.
For starters, the little things stick out to me. I don't need someone to send me a gift basket when they get my "get well soon" card, but hey, send me a short text saying thanks! And I don't need you to post on Facebook everyday that I'm your greatest friend, but every now and then wouldn't hurt.
I observe practically anything and everything. So it's not hard to get you a present or tell someone about you because I've listened and watched you in a good way. Me overhearing the little things you love and what your favorite ice cream is a way for me to get to know you.
That's why I like knowing I'm appreciated. Give me some credit for being a good sister, friend, student, lover. Tell people how great I am. I deserve something.
I have my ups and downs but I treat people how they want to be treated. I take pride and joy with how I come across to others most of the time, especially in relationships. I brag about my family, friends and boyfriend. Is it too much to ask for the same thing? I can't come out and say, "Post a status on the birthday gift I gave you," because let's put it simply, that's low. But if you did happen to do that, it reassures me that you did like what I did for you and that I achieved my goal. All I'm really asking for is acknowledgement. Because let's face it, I could die tomorrow and what are you going to remember about me?
I might sound pushy, which could be annoying, but I guess I just want your attention. And you want to know why? 'Cause I didn't get it when I should have. That photo I posted describing how much I loved you as a friend? Not even a like. That $100 gift I searched all over for? Not even a thank you. As it built up over time, my anger over this issue did too. Appreciate me and all I'm doing for you. Because if I stopped and made you feel how I've felt, I'd bet you notice what no reassurance feels like.
I've been in the other spot and I simply don't understand how people just let these things fly over their heads. It's not that hard to pay attention to someone you care about. It's not even about paying attention, it's about listening to the person you want to know better. Reassure the person you care about how much they mean to you so they don't end up writing an article on what it's like to not feel it.
