Being 21 so far has been a roller coaster of emotions, from happy, to sad, to anxious and excited. As the year progresses, I know I will come to realize a whole lot more about what it's like to be 21 as I head into a new phase of life, and I'm excited to watch this list grow. Here are a few things I've realized since turning 21:

1. People refer to you as an "adult"

I was literally 20 yesterday, and I wasn't an adult then, so I'm definitely still not an adult at 21. Just because I am legal to do everything from vote to drink alcohol (except rent a car, apparently) doesn't mean I'm going to stop asking my mom to make my doctor appointments. I still love to eat meals at home, don't have a full time job, and don't pay for rent or gas, so no, I would not like to be referred to as an adult...which brings me to number two.

2. I still have no idea what I'm doing

I really don't. Sure, I'm in college, and I picked a major, but I don't know what I want to do with my life or what I really want to do. I have no idea where I'm going to live or if I want to go to grad school, there are too many options and I want to do everything.

3. I can't handle alcohol anymore

Gone are my freshman days where I could pound down tequila shots like nothing and wake up fresh as a daisy the next day. So I should probably stop telling myself that I can.

4. But being carded is still cool

I've waited all my life for the ability to be carded at a bar or club and to produce a real ID and be legit, so I'm sure the novelty of actually being carded won't wear off for awhile; it's the best part of finally being legal.

5. Everyone younger than me is a child

Because frankly, they kind of are' have you seen high schoolers these days? However, now that I'm 21, I really can't tell how old anyone younger than me actually is. I don't know what everyone is eating, but it seems like they're all getting smaller or shorter. This is why everyone younger than me is just collectively "12" in my eyes and why I can't be bothered to figure out your real age, sorry not sorry.

6. I'm the grandma of my friends

If you're like me, you've been blessed with friends that are younger than you by a good chunk of time. This means that while I'm 21, I'll have to be chillin' at 21 by myself for at least six months before any of my friends can even join me at the bar. Beer for one?

7. There aren't many milestones left

After 21, birthdays aren't really as big a deal as 13, 16, and 18 were. Becoming a teenager, learning to drive, and registering to vote are all amazing things that happen throughout your life into high school. Now I'm 21, but besides graduating from college, all I really have to look forward to is things like getting married or having a job, which really don't excite me too much. I don't consider marriage a milestone.

8. Birthdays are less exciting

I've never thought birthdays were a big deal, but now that I'm 21, they're even less so. Every year after this is really just another year closer to death, as morbid as that is. I'm just getting older and now, with less things to celebrate, it's even less exciting. I definitely won't celebrate turning 30, because who could be excited to turn 30?

9. Things and people are more annoying

Or maybe I'm just less patient, either way, my tolerance for things has decreased significantly and I imagine it will only continue to do so. As I get older I realize I just have less patience for stupid comments, ignorance, or bullshit because frankly (refer to my point number eight), I have limited time left and would rather not waste it.

10. Quality over Quantity

I realized this before I turned 21, but at this point in my life, it's pretty much my motto. It applies for everything I do and especially to friends. Life is about quality. You want to do things and make friends that enrich and enhance life and its experiences, otherwise, you're wasting your time.

21 was the year I literally prayed for the moment I turned 14. Now that it's here and I've reflected on my life, I realize how much I've learned and changed. While it's the oldest I've ever been, it's the youngest I'll ever be again, and I look forward to the rest of my life of trying to figure out this "adult" thing.