Almost every late night conversation I have had with friends somehow turns into us taking turns telling the group what some of the items on our bucket lists are. I recently was thinking about my list of things I want to do in my lifetime, and then I started pondering about the exact opposite—my anti-bucket list. It's easy to come up with things you want to do before you die, but thinking of things you never want to experience can be a little more challenging, yet very engaging.
1. Going to jail
One of my biggest nightmares is being arrested no matter the reason. I would be horrified for my parents and family to find out, and I do not think I would survive one night in a jail cell.
2. Forming an addiction
I have seen people in my life struggle with addictions, and not only does it greatly affect the addicts health and life, impact it has on the addicts family and friends is devastating. I hope I never put myself and my loved ones in the situation of dealing with an addiction.
3. Going skydiving
Skydiving is usually something that is on bucket lists, but it is definitely on my anti-bucket list. My fear of heights and the feeling of falling would only make me hate every second. Even the thought of skydiving makes my palms sweat.
4. Getting a divorce
The divorce rate in the United States is between 40 percent and 50 percent. Although divorce is very common in our society, I grew up with two parents who love each other very much, and I saw how divorce affected many of my friends at a very young age. I hope to have a marriage a lot like my parents', and I want my first marriage to be my only marriage.
5. Having a terminal illness
There is nothing more devastating than watching a love one struggle with a terminal illness. I could never imagine having to be the one directly affected by such an intense and aggressive illness. It takes an extreme level of strength to deal with and accept a terminal illness, and I'm not sure I would be able to come to terms with knowing my death is approaching slowly.
6. Losing a child
Whether it's due to a miscarriage, stillbirth, an accident, or an illness, I believe I would have a very difficult time recovering from the death of one of my children. I have wanted to be a mom since I was a little girl and the possibility of losing that little part of me would be extremely traumatic.
7. Not living my life to the fullest
I have so many aspirations and wishes for my future. I want to see the world, inspire others, read many, many books, write a book, have a family, but most of all, I want to love what I do. I would feel incredibly disappointed if I look back on life when I'm older and wish I had done more.
8. Regretting my life choices
As a freshman in college, I am still trying to figure out exactly what I want to do in the future. I think every college student worries at time that they aren't making the right decision on their major and their future career field. I hope I find my calling and am able to do it every single day rather than settling on something I don't feel passionate about.
9. Finding greater value in material goods than who I am as a person 
The saying "money can buy happiness" honestly appalls me. I will never understand how people can think the material items they have make them a better person because in reality, others won't care what you have if you are arrogant and don't have an accurate image of the world. I hope I always understand the importance of being a good person and that material goods don't determine the quality of a person.
10. Stop being curious
What drives me to get up and go to class every day is my curiosity and desire to keep learning. I value my ability to question things that I see and are told, and I hope that skill never goes away. Curiosity is so important because without it, nothing will ever progress or continue to change.
