You won't see her coming, she will come out of nowhere and take your heart just like that. You won't see the fact you're getting attached to her, even if it is just in a friend way. You will only see her smile and it will make you smile. You will hear her laugh and you'll laugh. Even if you don't realize it she will become an integral part of your life and if you lose her, you will eventually feel the pain of losing someone who cares so much.
She will care about everyone she meets and constantly ask about them if she doesn't see them every day. She won't be someone who is just going to forget you. She will be your number one supporter all the way until the finish line. She won't be someone who will give up on you or ever make you feel alone. She will be there for you even if it's about someone else she cares about. She will not get mad if you believe differently than her. She will love you through ever difference you two could ever possibly have.
You won't understand why she takes thirty minutes to choose an outfit, or why she worries so much about things that have not happened yet, or why she gets so scared when you or anyone else gets mad at her. She will overthink enough for the both of you. She will constantly wonder if she is doing the right thing for you, whether you're in a relationship with her or you are just her friend. She will wonder if she is saying the right thing to you or if you are taking what she has said out of context. She will worry about being in social situations because she wants to make everyone happy. She wants to make everyone happy before herself and that is why she ruins herself with overthinking.
She will love in the purest form, with all of her heart. She will love the way children play and the way people laugh. She will love seeing someone smile that has not smiled in a while. She will love thinking of the progress that people in OT and PT make. She will love making you and her other friends smile and happy. She will love the smell of pizza or clothes fresh out of the laundry. She will love the sky looks and could talk about it for hours. She will love life to its fullest extent no matter how bad of a day she is having because she will remind herself that she got to wake up today. She will care for her friends like they are the world. She will love them like they are her family. She will love her family because they are the strongest part of her. She will love her siblings the way she wants to be loved. She will love her Future Mr. Right like she has been waiting on him to come along for years because she has been. She will love others the way she wants to be loved, with all of your heart.
She will hurt. Oh my gosh will she hurt like nobody can fix her. She takes the simple pain and feels it for 20 other people. That's who she is. She will hurt and cry like you will never understand. Chances are, you will not ever see her in her most vulnerable state, panicking on her bedroom floor because she will be so scared of what is going on then. You'll question why she is the way she is and wonder if you chose the right person to be friends or in a relationship with. You'll wonder who hurt her so badly that her heart grew ten times bigger where they stabbed it. You'll wonder how you can ever fix her the way she fixes others. You'll wonder how someone who cares so much about everyone they meet can hurt so much. You'll question why the world is the way it is because it shouldn't be the way it is, no one should be able to destroy someone so beautiful inside and out. She'll cry and you'll wish you can take away her pain, but she'd rather take her pain times ten before she let you ever feel an ounce of pain.
But, then you'll hurt her. Maybe you said something you did not mean, maybe you hurt her in a way she will not be able to explain, maybe you disappointed her, maybe you show her a side of you or you did something she does not understand, whatever it is...she will hurt so bad she will be angry. She will be so angry that she wants to scream because someone she cares about can't hurt her. You'll wonder how someone who seems so small can be so angry. She won't act on it though, you won't feel her wrath. You'll feel her give up almost, but she never does all the way. You'll see that you actually have to try to fix something with someone who normally does all the fixing because that's how she works. She tries and tries to fix everything she possibly can until you give her a reason not to try anymore. Once you give her that reason, you won't experience the same smile or hear the same laughter because you will know that it doesn't reach as high or sound as loud. But you won't understand that she really isn't mad at you. She doesn't like to be mad because that hurts her more than it hurts you. But she will be a rock towards you. She will be cold because she showed you who she was and she will feel like that you didn't care enough.
That's when I hope you regret hurting someone with a big heart. Someone who would do anything for anything around them. Someone who was willing to give you the world and take it from herself. I hope you regret when you see her smiling or laughing because you will know its not with you. I hope you regret it when you need someone talk to and you know she can listen. I hope you regret it when you just really miss her and her originality because you won't know if you will ever get to have the same girl you had before as a friend/family member/significant other. I hope you regret hurting her whether she is part of your family, your friend, a stranger, or a significant other. I hope you regret hurting a girl who is so strong that she will not let you see what you really did. I hope you regret it for a really long time. Even if it doesn't take her long to forgive you, I hope you regret causing someone with a big heart even an ounce of pain.
