It all begins on a chilly January morning, the first day of 2nd semester. *Cue horror movie music.* A lot of things will happen during this five-month game of tug-of-war, but you know you'll come out on top. The key player of this semester is lack of motivation, which ultimately leads to everything else, almost like a domino effect. You procrastinate, you start on something and then..."Oh look, someone snapchatted me!" and then two hours later, you've finally completed your task, which really only should've taken 15 minutes. Of course, this makes for some very long nights, leading to a pair of raccoon eyes and the-largest-travel-mug-you-could-find-in-your-house full of some seriously strong coffee. These days add up, and your grades come down. You trade cute clothes and makeup for messy buns and big sweatshirts. With every passing moment goes a little bit of your energy your patience, and your sanity. And it's not just you. Your entire school has become a zombie movie. Just when you don't think it can get any worse, it does. Allergies. Now you're a sniffly, sneezing version of your 2nd semester self. You're sitting in class trying to pay attention through a pollen-induced fog. And then the allergies pass, but you're staring finals week in the face. But, before you know it, it's summer break. Hang in there everyone!
I know I don't say it enough, so let me start off by saying thank you.
You'll never understand how incredibly blessed I am to have you in my life. You'll also never understand how special you are to me and how much I love you.
I can't thank you enough for countless days and nights at your house venting, and never being too busy when I need you. Thank you for the shopping days and always helping me find the best deals on the cutest clothes. For all the appointments I didn't want to go to by myself. Thank you for making two prom days and a graduation party days I could never forget. Thank you for being overprotective when it comes to the men in my life.
Most importantly, thank you for being my support system throughout the numerous highs and lows my life has brought me. Thank you for being honest even when it isn't what I want to hear. Thank you for always keeping my feet on the ground and keeping me sane when I feel like freaking out. Thank you for always supporting whatever dream I choose to chase that day. Thank you for being a second mom. Thank you for bringing me into your family and treating me like one of your own, for making me feel special because you do not have an obligation to spend time with me.
You've been my hero and role model from the time you came into my life. You don't know how to say no when family comes to you for help. You're understanding, kind, fun, full of life and you have the biggest heart. However, you're honest and strong and sometimes a little intimidating. No matter what will always have a special place in my heart.
There is no possible way to ever thank you for every thing you have done for me and will continue to do for me. Thank you for being you.
So, school is over now and I've come home. As expected I was so relieved at first. No more showering with flip-flops, no more listening to screaming girls running up and down the hall, and a space that is mine and mine alone. But after a week or so of being back, there are a few things I've already started to miss.
I know that not every single person has the ideal roommate but I got really lucky with mine. Coming home I was excited to have my own space, but now when I'm doing my midnight scrolling, I'm realizing that I miss being able to talk to her about the funny things I see in that very moment. Tagging, DMing, and texting her doesn't feel the same as a long night of giggles spent together.
Also, while seeing old friends when you get home is amazing, and there is always a lot to catch up on, you do start to miss your other friends too. Being in college means that your friends are going through similar things as you are all the time. You have tests together, clubs together, and sometimes you spend way too much time procrastinating together. The bond you begin to form is one you definitely begin to miss - especially when you guys don't live close off of campus.
Coming home also means you don't have a set schedule or at least not immediately. You may come back to a previous job and that puts something on your calendar, but the free time you still have during the week can be a little too much. I know I've spent way too much time obsessing over the Tati/James drama than I ever would have at school. The routine I had at school kept me busy and entertained, and I'm honestly missing it a lot right now.
There are a lot of other things to miss too - even things you thought you wouldn't. You miss the classes, the teachers, and sometimes the food. I know I miss the environment. It isn't a perfect one, but it's full of people just trying to find their way. We are all working through the roller coaster of life and we are all stuck on one beautiful campus together while we figure it all out. I miss meeting new people at the bus stops or running into old classmates and catching up.
I guess the bonus for me is that I just finished sophomore year which means I have more time to spend at school. Come senior year, I guess I'll have to learn quickly how to deal without the things I miss - and also create a schedule so I can travel to see all of my friends, but those are all problems for future me.