Yes, you read the title right.

Honestly, I used to be ashamed of this.

I would like a boy, and then not anymore. But did I do anything about the infatuation? No. Nearing the end of my teen years, I've come to the realization it was for my benefit that I did not date anyone. The Lord wants me to focus my life on Him, and let Him prepare me for who He has in store for my future.

In 1 Corinthians 7:34-35, Paul encourages single women, "And the unmarried or betrothed woman is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to be holy in body and spirit. But the married woman is anxious about worldly things, how to please her husband."

He continues, "I say this for your own benefit, not to lay any restraint upon you, but to promote good order and to secure your undivided devotion to the Lord."With this, I consider my single-hood to be a season of growing, pruning, and serving. It is a personal preference that I choose to make every day, despite what society says is suitable.

Now don't get me wrong, I do long for relationship.

But I am patient with the Lord's plans for my life. I know He has His best interests in store for me, so I choose to pursue after His desires. And as I grow, His desires become my desires.

Then the world steps in. "What if you mess it up?"What if you lose a friend?"What if you open yourself up, and end up hurt?"Life is full of "what if"scenarios, but you have to choose to overlook the societal conformities. We have to choose God's best despite being pressured to choose society's norm. Looking past "what if", instead ask, "How, together, can we further God's kingdom?"

I trust God with my heart.

I know He won't let me down. I know He knows what is best, and I choose to step out in faith, and allow Him to "take the wheel". I'm in the waiting, and can I just say…Waiting is okay!