In my life, I’ve faced many hardships that I never thought I would have to go through, and I’ve been challenged with the rough patch of trying to get myself through it and become stronger. It wasn’t easy, and I’d find myself questioning: “Why did this have to happen? What did I do to deserve this?” There would be times when I would cry or get angry, and I’d look to God to fix things and make those feelings stop. Every night I prayed that tomorrow would be better and things would go back to the way they used to be. But every day, things would stay the same. There would be days that were easier where I would laugh and be happy and feel like myself, and there would be days where I was feeling sad and lonely and didn’t want to leave my room. So instead of wallowing in my self-pity, and asking God to get things back to what I thought was “normal,” I started thanking Him for the good days, and on the bad days I would tell him that I trust that this is part of His plan and I would move forward. I read a quote that said: “Everything happens for a reason. Nothing occurs by chance. It’s all part of God’s divine plan. Learn to trust it and go where he leads you.”

Even though I was in so much pain and I was faced with a horrible experience that I had never been through before, I knew that God was doing something to look out for me. In trusting what He was doing, I found a sense of peace. I stopped worrying about what was happening or what I could do, and I reminded myself that it was in His hands. A few days after doing this, I was faced with amazing news that I doubted would ever come, and the first thing I did was thanked Him for it. I knew that things would only go up from there, but I still felt the feeling in the back of my mind of why the other bad stuff had to happen. To be completely honest, it is difficult to put all of your trust in His plan, especially when things are silent and you like to have control of what is going on all the time. But trust that things do not happen instantly, and it will take time to fully understand why you had to go through something so painful and what it was that God was leading you to. There were a lot of ups and downs in the process of moving on, and there were some days where I felt sad and I had a hard time trusting God with something that was out of my control. So I prayed, and I reminded myself that it is freeing knowing that I do not have to worry because He is looking out for me. No matter if it is a good day or a bad one, I always remember that God does not shut one door without intentions of opening an even better one.