I miss you.
I know for a fact that I'm not alone in this situation. God took someone out of my life that shattered my whole world. My person happened to be my moms boyfriend. He walked right into our lives and took us in, not caring that we weren't his by blood. In his world, we were his.
Anyone that knows me, knows in 2013 I lost one of the most important people in my life. A month before his 36th birthday, he was called home. I know, right now, he's probably up in heaven dancing along to the songs that Cory Monteith would be singing. I know they'd be great friends, because I love them both dearly, even if I only met one of them. Either that, or he's shaking his head at me and my taste in idols.
From the day he stepped into my life he showed me and the rest of my family nothing but love. I remember the days I'd get a text from him or if he'd post a status on my wall from my mom's Facebook. I always knew it was him, he was the only person to ever call me princess. To this day, I still don't let anyone.
My father and I have an out there relationship; we're so alike that it just doesn't work. We've accepted that, and occasionally try to make things work. Boo walked into my life as my little brother's junior pro football coach and my mother's coworker. He ended his life being a dad to me. So naturally his loss hurt a lot. I can't really get into the day he passed, even though I remember every single thing. It just hurts too much.
He showed me that love doesn't have to just come from your boyfriend, friends or family. It can come from a random person that just appears, like he did. He didn't have to have a relationship with my siblings and I. He could've easily just chosen to date my mom and not socialize with us. For some reason, though, he didn't.
This article is really out there and all over the place, I just wasn't sure how to exactly word this. I mean, what do you say about the person you looked up to? He's gone, I can't change that, no one can. I do know that there is plenty of people out there who lost someone too soon and just wanted more time with them. It could be a father, brother, mother, or a best friend. As much as I don't want to admit it, it does get easier. It could take years to fill that void, or you may never fill it. Somewhere around this place, he's here. I can't really see him or hear him, I just know. I have my memories of him, just like everyone else does. I know that when I'm in trouble or hurting or just plain lost, my guardian angel will appear and be there for me.
