Here is an open letter to the person that not only walked out on me, but ruined everything about me.
Hello,
I'm the child of the person you knocked up about 20ish years ago. You don't know me, and you don't have a reason to. I'm thankful I didn't grow up with you in my life because it'd be a damn shame if my life was any worse than it was with you in it. Thankfully you tried to care about me for a year or so, anything more than that would have been terrible. This letter isn't going to be a bashing letter so before you get all hyped up about feeling attacked, just read.
Can you answer this question for me, how does it feel to wake up everyday knowing you have kids that you did this to? How does it feel to miss out on all the milestones I've gone through in life? How does it feel to be you? I bet it's great. I bet blacking out from drinking and the high from the drugs helps out a lot. How can you find more joy from drugs and alcohol than your own children? How do you wake up everyday and not hate yourself? Because I wake up everyday hating you more, and more.
You were supposed to be the only man to stay in my life and teach me about things. But instead you taught me how to have major trust issues & that not all people are good.
Thank you so much for not being in my life. Thank you for always making every holiday or birthday about you, it's not like I would of wanted to enjoy my birthday or anything. Lets make it all about the drunk who can barely form a sentence. Lets make sure we walk on eggshells around you because god forbid anyone says anything to hurt your feelings but you can sure hurt everyone else. Thank you for waking me up at 2am, drunk, to tell me how much of a pos you are. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!
Because of you, I am scarred. I refuse to cry anymore thinking about how much you hurt me. I refuse to let anyone make up some sorry ass excuse for you. I refuse to let you ruin my life anymore. I refuse to let some sorry excuse as a person bring me down, just because you hate your life more than anything.
Today I'm giving up on you. Today is the day I let you go. I let go of all the "memories" and thoughts of you. Today is a fresh start (not for us) but for myself. Today I am the strong person I claim to be. Today is the day I stop letting you be a reason to not live my life. Today I stop crying about things you've said, or names you've called me. I'm no longer anything to you, just a memory. Don't mention me as if there will ever be a chance, or as if you'll ever be back in my life. As of today I have nothing left to say to you, you've made your bed now lie in it.
-The one who's going to make it in life
