We all have had our fair share of heartbreaks over the years. Maybe this is your first, or maybe this is just yet another wound to add to the many scars elaborately decorating the inner walls of your heart. Either way, my heart goes out to you. I've been there. The pain is real and the struggle against bitterness is beginning to wage it's war in both your heart and mind.
Was it me?
Was I not enough?
The insecurities rear their ugly heads only to punish your tattered heart even further. No matter how many well meaning people tell you that it was his/her loss and your gain, that you are more than better off without them, you can't help but feel the surmounting grief weighing upon you at having lost the one person you loved. That's the thing. You loved them with every fiber of your being. You entrusted your heart to them.
But they didn't love you the way they promised.
The truth of the matter is, sometimes we have to forgive another for not being the person we needed them to be. The truth is, sometimes they are too broken themselves to look beyond their own noses and give you the love that you truly deserve. They don't know how to love. So they take, they wound, and then they leave without you knowing how to pick all the remaining shattered pieces up off the floor. However, there comes a point where you have to accept the fact that it isn't necessarily personal, you did not deserve any of this, and you aren't the one flawed. The fact of the matter is, that person didn't know how to love you and that person you so dearly loved and gave yourself to no longer exists. He/she died and only a ghost of their likeness exists reminding you of the one you loved. They aren't evil, nor do I believe anyone purposely enjoys destroying another they loved at one time, but they are broken, they are lost, and they are the ones in need of saving. Yet there's a profound truth you must grasp.
But you can't save them.
You can't heal them.
You aren't the answer.
However, you can forgive and let go. You can be thankful for the time and lessons learned. You can be thankful that they allowed you to appreciate the love you will one day meet when you finally find the one who will treasure your heart with care and grace. Trust me, it's out there. And once you find a love so true and perfectly matched for you, you will be ever so grateful you loved and lost, because then you will have loved and so wonderfully won the one who holds you and won't ever let go. Wait for it. I promise you that it is well worth the wait.
