"The long and winding road
That leads to your door
Will never disappear
I've seen that road before
It always leads me here ." -The Beatles
Unfortunately, that is not how life works.
I'm a planner. I've planned my life since I was a small child. At age four, I planned my career (an actress, dentist, and veterinarian by day and a secret agent at night). At age eight, I planned my wedding down to the cake design (white with pearls and icing that resembles lace). And at age 12, I planned how I was going to retire (on a horse ranch in Arizona). You could say that I am very type A.
Since I am extremely type A, I really hate change and things going not according to plan. Because of this, I also like to have a backup plan just in case it cannot work. Little did I know that God was going to teach me a very important lesson.
It all began my freshman year of college. I came to Grove City College as a biology major ready to become a pediatric nurse. I had my schedule planned out perfectly. However, when I started my classes, I did not enjoy them. Chemistry was too hard, calculus was impossible, and the labs were confusing. I was very disappointed in myself, knowing that I made the wrong turn in my path of life.
During the winter of my freshman year at Grove City, I was stuck and I did not know what to do. I was stuck with a major that I was not happy with and a career path that I was not 100 percent happy with. Then, that Christmas break I was talking with my Latin teacher about my career path, and she suggested that I try teaching young children since I was able to successfully tutor four Latin students. I then decided to take that offer up and started to take education classes the fall of my sophomore year.
I loved my education classes, except for the fact that my grades were not high enough to progress through the certification stages of the major. I was behind with not only grades but with the year as well. I was also stuck and was very frustrated with myself with this major.
However, this past summer break, I suddenly had a better attitude toward changes in my life. I realized that God knows what he is doing in every aspect of my life, from relationships to school. God knows what I am going to do in my life, but like the type A that I was, I wanted to do life my way. I was not listening to God, and I have suffered for it.
Over this fall break, I decided to take a French major with a Classical Christian Education minor. Yes, I have changed my major three times throughout college, but I have learned so much more than I would have if I had found the major that I was supposed to be. Sometimes, God has you go through hard and blind trials for you to figure out where you truly belong.
My message to you is this, reader: sometimes the road ahead may be foggy. Sometimes the road ahead may have a sharp turn. Sometimes, the road ahead may end. But just like driving, pay attention to the signs of your road. If God signals you to stop or turn a different direction, follow it, for you do not know the condition of the road ahead. You may think it is a bad thing to turn or not see a clear road up ahead, but trust in God to give you a clear understanding, so that the "fog" in your road may be lifted.
"Jesus said to him, 'You may not know what I am doing, but later you will understand.'"-John 13:7