Friendships can be extremely toxic. We don't even realize it at times because we'd rather deal with it than go friendless. Well, let me say it sucks. It sucks being trapped in a friendship that may have originally been so fun and loving. It has probably happened to all of us at some point in our lives but we just keep these people around anyway. The idea of not being friends anymore is daunting and super scary but you just have to get them out of your life. My toxic friendship lasted for a lot of my high school career and I wished I would have gotten out of it sooner.

It was two girls and it started out like any other friendship; constant texting, always wanting to hang out, meeting up at football games, and lots of laughing. I felt so cool. I was included and wanted and it definitely felt good to be with people instead of keeping to myself and reading a book. From freshman year to junior year, the three of us were inseparable. I felt popular because I got to be friends with the girl that everyone wanted to be around. Even though we were still "friends" until junior year, things didn't always feel right when I hung out with them.

I thought everything was fine but there were always little things I started to pick up on. I noticed that I would do something to try and hang out, it wouldn't work and they both pointed fingers at me. They got mad at me for little things and everything always ended up being my fault. I also realized that my two friends always hung out more without me. I would hang out with both of them, but when I tried to hang out just the two of us, I just got pushed aside. I also felt like I couldn't be myself around them. I felt like I needed to change just to keep our friendship going, and it was starting to become more of a chore.My other friend and I started to understand that they didn't really want us as part of their group. We were there if they needed anything, but weren't going to last as a true friendship. My other friends didn't want me to keep putting up with their drama. It was hard for me to see, but they definitely were not my true friends.

I started distancing myself and telling myself that this wasn't a friendship I should be in. It caused me to compromise myself to try and be liked and no one should have to do that. I figured out that I was worth more than their friendship. It wasn't fun being the third wheel, and I have better and stronger relationships because of their "friendship." Don't fall down the toxic friendship trap. It's hard to get out of because it originally feels good but ends up hurting more than it helps. These girls can keep their friendship with each other but I'm happy to not be a part of it anymore.