Everyone gets accustomed to loss. Whether you like it or not, you will experience loss in one form or the other maybe once, maybe more- sometimes more than one can take. These are significant losses where grieving is essential, like the loss of a member, a dog, or a friend and then there are losses in terms of the people you keep in your lives. Face it, we have all lost a friend or two and sometimes you lose more and its alright. For every person you lose, has played their part in your lives whether they hurt you or helped you- their time has passed. Its crazy to think that the people who were once friends you thought were forever only lasted so long. The friends I've "lost" have lost me, i was merely taught a lesson.

I had always been the bigger person, the one to run and apologize even when it wasn't my fault. The one to forgive the moment an "I'm sorry" was uttered. The one to make plans, bring up hanging out, conversate more and listen more. I was always there to listen to you, not only when you were crying because your family member was sick or your grades had dropped or the guy you liked was driving you mad- i was there when you were picking out an outfit, i was there when you ignored me because a boy had entered your life, i was there when you were studying and almost had a breakdown. I was there and that's something you can never deny. I was a good friend, and when i "lost you" i spent time wondering what i did wrong to make you want to end a friendship that was 3 years in, 4 years in, 2 years in. I pictured our friendship as a forever kind, one that wouldn't break easily, one that would endure its hardships but in the end get stronger. I was wrong. While i was racking my brain on what i did to lose someone in my life, i found a bunch of pictures and realized that we had some great memories but an even greater one sided friendship. I was the better friend. I tried harder, i never understood what i did wrong until i did... i didn't do anything wrong. We drifted, you made up lies, you created excuses, made me out to be the worse friend. But i kept all of your secrets, i remember every time you cried, every time you fought yourself. And i will continue to do so, because even though our friendship no longer exists, i haven't changed. If you're reading this, I hope that your life is going well and that your parents are doing fine. I hope that school is getting better and that you have found friends like mine. Thank you for the time you spent in my life, i know mine was wasted time. You lost me, i'm doing just fine.