Dear Diary,

I feel so lost and alone at the moment. I decided to buy a small diary that I can keep hidden.

I am so ashamed. Wow, it is the first time I have said it out loud.

I don’t think I thought everything through.

Things have gotten so completely complicated. I don’t know where to begin.

Mama and Papa were right.

They tried to warn me about this life, and now all everyone wants is to change who I am.

First, my name got changed to Rosaline Starr, and then my innocence got taken by him.

He has turned me into his puppet and has done to me what he pleases.

I don’t even recall the days and the nights anymore.

He always wants me to drink at the many parties we have attended.

There is so much of the devil’s juice there, and other things that many of the people take.

I have also seen the other young starlets and they look sad.

But what do I know? No one wants to hear what Eliza Clark has to say.

It’s so crazy.

Maybe I should pack up and go. Yes, that is what I will do.

Listen to me, I sound crazy now.

This is all I have ever wanted, to be a star, and now, hell, my name has "Starr" in it.

I am not sure why I am writing all of this.

Maybe I am just being silly.

After all, he thinks I am his doll and he does get me everything I need.

I live with him; he buys me the best clothes and takes me to the fanciest places. Now we are working on my first big debut on a Broadway show.

Many girls would love to be in my shoes. I am sure they are waiting. I need to just be happy.

Enjoy it and stop letting the ghost of my pathetic past get in my way.

I should think about wiring some money to my family. They must need it.

But if I do, they will all know the truth of where I come from, and then I will surely lose it all. That just can’t be.

I can’t let it happen.

No, I will keep quiet and enjoy it all. I worked hard.

Everyone back home doubted me.

They never believed in me.

But I have shown them all.

Right?

Eliza