To the best friend that did me wrong,
I remember the day we met, it's clear in my mind as if it was only yesterday. We were both new to the school and we didn't have a lot of friends. We were the outcasts.
It was freshmen year and we were sitting in Mrs. Wright's class. We were doing a group project and I got placed in the group with you and two others.
I didn't like you at first, you always had that mean look on your face, I don't think I ever once saw you smile. You looked like the kind of girl I would never have been friends with. I remember this day so clearly because we spilled sunflower seeds all over the floor. You talked my cousin into picking them up for a dollar, and then you took it back from him. I still don't think he's forgiven you for that.
That's the day our friendship started. We were like two peas in a pod, we were inseparable. We did everything together, you were my family and I was yours. I remember every break up, every broken heart. I remember Luke and Tyler. Jason and Braedan. I remember them all. I was there for them. I was there for your cousin's birthday party. I remember the first time Marianna said my name; I cried.
I remember staying at your house more than you did. I practically lived with your mom. They spoiled me more than they did you. I remember the constant trips to the movies and taking Brandon with us wherever we went. I remember the Sunday dinners at your grandmas, and the Cook Outs at mine. I remember the birthday parties you threw me when we couldn't afford it. I remember the Christmas shopping and Christmas dinner at your grandmas.
I remember us getting into trouble in Mrs. Rudloff's class because we always thought she was uptight and she always seemed to point us out. I remember everything, from the planning to live together to how many kids we would have. To the rules for boyfriends staying over.
Four years ago I would've told someone that we were going to be friends forever but that was just a pipe dream, people change. As you've shown me, people grow up. Eventually they start to leave you behind as something newer and shinier comes along. When a boy promises you the world and your best friend is just another meaningless person in your life.
When the one person whose been there throughout everything, no longer is worth your time. You used to be my best friend, my sister, my soul mate. But you changed, in more ways than you'll know. You aren't the girl I grew to know and love. You aren't the person I wanted to live with. You let the boys cloud your mind and your judgement. You let them ruin everything you had.
You let them turn you against your best friend, the person that gave you a home when you had none. The one that took you in like it was nothing. The one that defended you when everyone else was against you. YOU let this happen.
You treat everyone in your life badly because you don't think you deserve them, but you deserve the world, even if I'm not there to see it. This is my goodbye to you, my final one. I want you to grow up and be happy; I want you to let people in.
I want you to fix your relationship with your mom; she loves you, she really does. I want you to be the independent person you want to be. I want you to smile and laugh. I want you to let go of all your anger. I want you to stop pushing people away. I want you to live.
I want to thank you, because of you I learned so many things and met so many wonderful people. I met Ethan; he was my best friend for so long then you got in the middle and things got complicated, but he's still my best friend and we still talk.
I met Dani; we got off on the wrong foot, her and I, but somehow we still managed to be friends. You made me believe she was this horrible person and she's not. She has such a bright personality and even when she had all reason to hate me, she doesn't. We're friends, we matured, we talked, and she's easy to get along with. But god bless anyone that gets on her bad side.
And finally we have Kris, aka Carlos, who is by far my best friend. He talks me out of stupid stuff, tells me to stop being crazy and just breathe. He encouraged me to fix things with Dani and Ethan and I'm glad he did. He makes me smile and laugh and I'm never sad when I talk to him. Thank you, because of you I gained so many people when I had none.
These people have influenced my life so much, sometimes good, sometimes bad. Yet they still influenced it, just like you did.
I'm starting a new chapter in my life, I'm going to college. I'm growing up and I'm moving on. I'm gonna be someone, maybe down the road we'll cross paths again, maybe not. But I do know that I'm going to live my life to the fullest and do stupid, crazy things. I want it to mean something. Do you?
-The Best Friend That Never Gave Up.
