Hi,
I bet you never thought you'd hear from me again, but it's better off that way. In fact, I'm better off that way. I don't know if you'll ever see this, but I'm writing this anyway just to say thank you. Thank you for showing me exactly what I don't deserve. You never hurt me physically and maybe that's why you didn't think you were doing anything wrong. All of my scars were forming inside and you had no idea. I couldn't tell you because you would get mad at me or just wouldn't believe me.
When I met you, I was at a very vulnerable state in my life. I was 16 years old with no solid direction of where I was going to college or what I wanted to do in life, but you did everything you could to tell me what YOU thought I should be doing.
Instead of asking what I wanted, you told me what I wanted. Instead of encouraging me to pursue a college degree, you told me it wouldn't make a difference, so why bother? Instead of being supportive in my decision to move away, you gave me an ultimatum. I lost my voice, so you spoke for me instead of helping me find it. You pulled me away from my family, because you said they were toxic and didn't have my best interests in mind. I believed you at the time. You got what you wanted for a while. But then something happened..
Against your liking, I moved away. I stopped listening to you and I did what I wanted for a change. I went to college. It only took me 24 hours of being away from you to realize that you were the one that was toxic and didn't have my best interests in mind. You didn't like that. I hated you for the longest time for what you did to me and regretted ever having you in my life, but now I appreciate what happened. Four years later, I'm about to graduate from college and pursue a career that I've worked so hard for, I'm in a great relationship with someone who respects me and loves me in a way you never could, and I'm closer than ever to my family.
As bad as it was, I am so glad that I was shown such a good example of what I don't need in my life. I became a lot stronger and I regained my voice back and then some. You broke me down just enough so that I could rebuild myself into who I wanted to be, and I'm pretty damn proud of who I am today.
I want you to know that I am the happiest I've ever been and I can't wait to achieve all of the dreams you said I couldn't. So thank you.
Best,
Jordyn
