Ever since a was born I had a love for movies. I would repeatedly watch my favorites and never get sick of them, just enjoy them more each and every time. There has always been something about the ending of a movie, the song that plays throughout the credits that made me want to watch the movie again and again. It's as if I became attached to that movie and couldn't live without it that day.
As a grew older I started to have a love for B-Rated Horror films. It got to the point where my cousin and I would watch FearNet all day and have it run through the night until we fell asleep. When they started getting rid of our favorites we even emailed Comcast begging for them to put them back on. We were obsessed with the films! We even started trying to make our own horror movies... That didn't work out too well.
As I became a teenager, I was lost, I didn't know who I was yet or who I wanted to be, so I resorted to movies. Every weekend while my mom was at work, I would sit in my room, grab all the junk food I wanted, and watch tons of movies. I started to envy the characters and I would attach myself to them. I would start to wanna be them, so I would change the way I acted, spoke, dress, and more to fit that character. By doing this I got a taste of so many different personalities and styles that in a way, it was a path to finding my true self. I found out what I liked and didn't like each time I became the leading girl role of the last film I watched.
Throughout the years, movies have grown on me more and more. I always hated that question "what are your hobbies?" I didn't like playing sports, I wasn't artistic, and I didn't play an instrument. But as time went on, I realized watching movies was my hobby. My favorite thing to do with my free time is escape to another world and live as many lives possible through the journeys and characters that films offer.
Now, as I'm about to turn 20, I am still confused of what I truly want in life, but I do know one thing. I know I want to feel the way a feel after watching a beautiful film forever. After the lights go on, and I just get that adrenaline as I snap back to my reality after being in somebody else's life for 2 hours. The feeling I feel as I walk past those theatre doors and put on the film score of the movie I just saw, reminiscing on the inspirational quotes and the ideas on life the movie offered me. I will never forget the way movies have made me feel my whole life and how much that have offered to help me find my true self and push me to do more in life.
They say to do something you love so you never feel like your going to work. I can truly hope that I will be involved in some sort of film career when I'm older. Preferably a film critic. I never thought 10 years ago, Hell even 5 years ago I would be dreaming of being a film critic, making movies a huge part of my life, a career.
So I thank you movies. Thank you for being apart of me, thank you for always being there for me, and thank you for creating a better me.
Love, A Movie Lover Named Abby
