First off, I wanted to just say thank you. Thank you for dealing not only with just myself, as a person- which I’ll admit sometimes can be had to do because I can be a handful, but also with my depression. Thank you for being there to drag me out of bed when I am having a bad day, and making sure I get to class. Thank you for understanding that sometimes I feel that all hope is lost in the world and I simply cannot make it through that day even though at the time I may not seem grateful, just know that I am. Thank you for the just checking in phone calls or the “ I knew you would find this funny” text messages, just to get me to crack a smile or simply, make my day.
However, what I really want to thank you for is getting me help. Thank you for pushing me to go see someone and talk to them about what’s going on or even you being that someone. Also, thank you for being there for me and being so supportive and being that shoulder to lean and cry on when things got tough and the world felt like it was crashing down in flames all around me. Thank you for driving me or even walking with me to the local CVS to pick up my medication just to make sure that I was taking it and everything was working out all right.
I also want to say I am sorry. I am sorry that I can be pouty and moody and overall hard to deal with sometimes. I am sorry that even though I tell you I want to make plans or does certain things with you then suddenly, I change my mind and I want to do none of those things and cancel on you last minute. I am sorry I am not the same person as I was when we first met, I am sorry that I am no longer a carefree energetic ball of light like how I used to be. Don’t worry, I miss that girl too; I am trying to get her back. I am sorry that I test your patience on a daily basis and you feel like you do not know what to expect from me anymore.
Despite all those things I have to be sorry for, you stick by me. You continue to show love and patience to me and continue to support me most importantly during this time where I truly need someone. Thank you for showing me that things will change and that hopefully I will get better and if not, that you will still be here for me at the end of the day. You also show me that the real me is still there and that she is just going through something right now and with time as all things do, it will pass and she will return and you will be there waiting for her with open arms. Thank you for showing me what a real friend is.
