Some days it's hard to wake up, put on a smile and go out and face the world. On those days stay in bed as long as you need to. Cry as much as you want to. You are allowed to feel sad and heartbroken. Your feelings are valid and it's OK not to be OK.
Even if all you did was get up today, I'm proud of you. I'm proud of you for existing because sometimes existing is the bravest thing you can do.
Over the past few years I learned that it was important to celebrate every little step I took forward. Dealing with a broken heart, an eating disorder and recovering from an attempt to end my life drained all of my energy. Night after night, I would cry myself to sleep feeling like it was the end of the world. I felt so alone and I never thought I would find happiness again. Getting out of bed to drag myself to class every morning was hard. I skipped and dropped multiple classes. I couldn't bring myself to do what I believed a normal college student should be capable of doing and I felt like a failure. But, I didn't realize how strong I was for simply existing when all I wanted to do was give up. On some days, the most I could do was lay in bed and stare at my phone and that's OK.
Every little step counts. Just take it one day at a time and focus on the present. Everyone heals at a different pace. For some people it might take months and for others, recovery could take years. All that matters is that you keep trying and that you never give up because you are worth it. You deserve all the happiness in the world.
If you feel like it's the end of the world and you got out of bed today, I'm proud of you. I'm proud of you for eating even if you didn't have an appetite. I'm proud of you for going to class or work even if you were exhausted from crying the night before. I'm proud of you for staying strong because it takes strength to wake up and force yourself to go on when life brings you down. Even if you didn't do any of those things, I'm still proud of you for existing.
Please don't ever give up on life. Your worth is endless and this world wouldn't be the same without you. It may feel like the hard times will last forever but I promise that you will be okay one day and all of your tears will be replaced with laughter. Just remember that no matter what happens, you will always have the chance to begin again because every day is a new day. Keep going because you will get to where you want to be eventually. For now, if the most you can do is get out of bed, be proud of yourself because facing life takes an enormous amount of courage.
To all of those that are holding onto the very last thread of hope, remember that you are loved. You are a warrior and you can win this fight. Thank you for existing and making this world a better place.
