I really wish I had spoken to you more about deciding when to leave your life, but I felt like I was watching from the outside with every social media post of yours I saw. Eventually, I just had to do what I thought was best. What honestly, is best.

I don't want you to think I stopped caring, because I never did. If you ever need me, please call. I still hope for the best for you and my heart breaks to know that there are so many adventures I won't accompany you on. But I am so grateful for the lessons we taught each other, even if sometimes it took us through a lot of pain. I apologize again, for ever being that toxic person in your life who made you hate being around me. I didn't want that for us, and even if I was angry I should have handled it better.

I think what I loved most about our friendship was how genuine we could be with each other, no matter what it was. I liked that we could spend hours together doing almost anything and by the end, it would still be fun.

Living with you may have honestly cost us our friendship, but it makes me so happy to think of some of the sweet moments we did have in our apartment. You always pushed me to be the better version of myself but allowed me to make mistakes while getting there. I should have done the same thing for you more often.

I will always cherish the memories we made together and look back on them fondly, I think we had a beautiful friendship and even though it's probably best we stay exes, I still love you all the same and I hope that whoever your best friend is she knows how lucky she is to have someone like you.

For the woman who stands next to you as you marry your forever, I hope she remembers to drive slowly if you're in the passenger seat. I hope that she always knows when to play Jack Johnson, and when to listen instead of speak. I hope that she treats you with the love and respect you deserve of a best friend.

So for us both, I say:

Thank U, Next.