I've never been the religious type. But when I was with you, I knew there had to be a God to create you because you were amazing. Yes, you had your flaws, but who doesn't.

I've never been the religious type. But the longer I stayed with you, the farther I felt away from the goals that I convinced myself that I needed to accomplish in order to be successful and content in life.

But one day, towards the end of February, everyone around me were buzzing about what they were going to give up for lent. Most of the things I heard were very materialistic. Some gave up particular types of food while others gave up social media and excessive spending.

I never participated in these types of holidays, and so I thought if I did, I would take this seriously so I can actually gain something from this experience.

To do so, I had to look within myself to find something that I needed to give up, an this thing needed to be something I felt was a necessity in my life. It had to be something that would alter my day completely if was absent. It had to be something that if in reality I actually did let go, I would actually be a better person. In doing so, it had to be something that alters my perspective on life.

That something is you.

I have decided to give you up for lent. For a little more than 40 days.

Until April 13, you won't hear from me. You won't see me. I will ignore you out of my life so hard you'll question yourself if you actually knew me. I will not talk to you. I will not talk of you. I won't remember you. I won't think of you.

I hope that the next 40 days prepares me for a lifetime without you. I hope after these 40 days, I really won't remember you. I hope I won't remember how my heart ached for you. I just hope I won't know you. You don't deserve to a memory in my brain.

I've never been a religious person, but I'm going to be a much better person after this holiday.