"The Lord, my God, lights up my darkness." Psalm 18:28
I have so many shortcomings. I have struggles, insecurities, doubts, faults, times I fall short… The list goes on. I remember going into the summer praying God would reveal my weaknesses; exposing anything in my life hindering me from living a life of fullness in Him. Honestly, this is a dangerous prayer. The Lord is faithful and has answered this prayer in ways I have not expected. It has been both one of the best times where I have seen such monumental growth, but also difficult continually realizing faults and flaws about yourself. All of this, God already knew and knows everything I am continuously learning.
But thank God for God. Despite all of these things, He still uses me in ways I never thought tangible. He takes us— brokenness and all— and continuously crafts us so we may be molded into someone who does something that was once unimaginable. This is not for us, but all for His glory. Through our brokenness, His light is shown. It is when we look in the mirror and see everything we do and are is the byproduct of God at work within us. With complete surrender comes complete raw dependence on God, which is right where He wants us. Because it is when we do or accomplish something that is so far out of our realm of competence, it is not us, but God entirely.
I have so many shortcomings. Each day I am in need of God’s mercy, love, grace, strengths and forgiveness. But thanks be to God that He meets all of us no matter where we may be, and each day forms and molds us to all He has created to be so that whatever we may do in the world, we may do it big and for His glory.