Before indulging in this poem I just want to remind you that if you ever feel this way or you can relate a little too much to the things I say, please seek help and don't be afraid. I write this poem so people can be aware of you. For some of out there, these words are meaningless and don't hold true. For others, they are what we fight against and what we are going through. So once again, if this is you please seek help. If this is a friend you know, please seek help. If you don't want to talk to someone who can't relate to you then talk to me. Whatever the situation may just know you are not alone. You Are Never Alone.

For any University of Maryland students seeking help for you or a friend please schedule an initial appointment, also called an intake appointment call (301) 314-7651 or stop by the Counseling Center reception desk on the main level of Shoemaker Building.

For anyone else out there seeking help or help for a friend please call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline-1800-273-8255.

Temporary savior please make me numb. Make my days worth it under the the sun. Bring your laughs and bring your fun, because once indulged there’ll be more to come.

Open my mind and close my eyes. Peel my layers and tell me lies. Spread your joy throughout my veins. Use your magic to ease my pains.

Embed yourself within my brain. An addict I am not, but from you I can not refrain. You make me feel alive. An extrovert I will be. With you by my side, my dreams I exceed. With you by my side no friend I will need. When you are in hand you elicit the real me.

Bring me fun, don’t bring me shame. Powder my nose again and again. Temporary savior engulf me with joy. I know you are malicious, but I ignore your ploy.

Bring me peace and turn down the noise. Temporary savior please don’t cause me pain. Taking you is a better way than piercing my brain.

Temporary savior you know your name. Change my life and I’ll never act the same. Popular amongst the youth your lies you spread. Sniffed you once now you’re in my head.

Days without you are days filled with dread. Give me life if I don’t wind up dead. Temporary savior I’m blacking out. My alacrity grows faint there’s no turning back now.

Through my blood your poison sprouts. That of consciousness, I’m fading out. Temporary savior bring me peace. Ease the minds of the ones that’ll mourn for me.

Open their eyes so they can truly see that what you did was so wrong for me. I lied to their faces I told them I’d stop. They flipped through my pages and figured your plot.

They witnessed the changes when I was beginning to rot. Unsubtly exchanges, I got that a lot. No, I’m not addicted I just need you see.

Temporary savior you have enlightened me. Took me on a journey to where I’ve never been before. I no longer feel alienated that’s why I need you more and more.

You’ve made cool, you’ve made me fun, but you’ve limited my days under the magnificent sun. My body grows weak what have you done to me. Temporary savior please let me be.

I seek out my friends, but they run from me. I’m alone once again I need company. A monstrosity in my reflection, whats become of me?

Temporary please come to me. I need you one last time so I can rest comfortably. Please listen carefully, because I’m about to say my final speech. I don’t have my much time, I can hardly breathe.

These words are precious, it’s getting harder for me. Temporary savior you vulturous beast. You have taken my life from me.

Temporary savior I thank thy. You have set this caged bird free. I’ll leave behind the cage that imprisoned me.

Resources that are available to those of you who feel this way:

National Suicide Prevention Hotline-1800-273-8255