The Struggle Of Being Both Opinionated And Caring Too Much About What People Think

I am super opinionated. Always have been, always will be. Sometimes, I probably come off kind of aggressive, but I can assure you, I'm not.

Actually, that's a lie. I so am.

However, I also have social anxiety. You'd think that would make me not speak up much at all, but you'd be wrong.

Rather it makes me freak out five minutes after I say anything.

It's really a struggle because part of me is confident and insane about proving my point, while the other side of me freaks out afterward, worried that people think I'm awful, or stupid.

Being smart is pretty much the only aspect of my personality I've always been certain of. That and I have damn good taste in music. Anyway, when people seem to challenge my intellect I sometimes get... Defensive.

But here's the thing-- they usually don't think I'm a bad person or stupid. But my anxiety is convinced they do. It really sucks.

It especially sucks because my friends are also opinionated and tolerate/like my outspokenness.

I shouldn't care what other people think but I so do. Way more than I'd like to admit.

I wish I was a Vulcan.