The future is terrifying sometimes. Sure, I know that in the near future I will graduate with a degree and a teaching certification. I know that once I graduate I’ll live at home for a year and get my first big girl job. I know that in a year I get to marry my best friend and change my last name.

But beyond that, I don’t really know anything. I hope that I will get to work in a Lutheran school like I have been preparing to do. I hope that we will love our new home and begin to put down roots to stick around for a while. I would like to think that we’ve already got it all figured out.

As we go through this Lenten season and prepare for Easter, I am reminded once again that God rarely works the way we expect Him to and that His ways are not our ways. He’s working on a much grander scale that we can even begin to fathom. It’s silly to think that we can wrap our minds around God because if we were capable of that, then it would negate His role in this world.

As a planner, it’s hard for me to “Let go and let God.” I want answers, I want to know the plan, and I want that now.

I don’t know what I think it would accomplish if I were to be in the loop about everything God has planned for me, but I can’t help wishing sometimes (eh – to be honest – a lot of the time) that I could get just a tiny peek into what my future will hold.

Time and time again, God has shown me that He’s got this under control. As much as I try to anticipate what’s next for me or to make plans for my future, I find that I am forced once again to just relax, stop wasting my time, and let God do His thing. Believe it or not, the creator knows a thing or two about what we all need.

That’s not to say that I always love everything that happens in my life. Sometimes following God’s plan puts me in tough spots that stretch me and dent me and chip away at my confidence. But it’s in those times of complete vulnerability that I grow more than any other time: as a Christian, as a friend, as a fiancée, as a daughter, as a professional, as a student, and as a person.

We might live in an imperfect world that is tainted by the stain of sin, but we serve a perfect God. He doesn’t make mistakes and he is so much bigger than all those challenges and uncertainties and mountains that we face. The future may look daunting, but there is no greater person in whose hands we can leave our lives.

So step back and stop worrying; He’s got this.