Staying Gone

Staying Gone

Simply leaving is not enough.
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Leaving isn't the hard part. It's staying gone. No one warns you about the aftermath. Once you've cut off all ties from your toxic relationship, phone numbers deleted, social media accounts unfollowed, venomous words spat — that's only the beginning. Leaving can provide a temporary high. But after the first few days have gone by, and you suddenly tangibly feel the loneliness enclosing around you, the hate begins to fade. Your throat doesn't burn with rage and your hands unravel from tightly clenched fists. Your heart feels a prisoner, trapped in its cage of ribs. Your eyes burn from late nights staring at the ominous black ceiling, cursed by the thought of him. But you did it, you left, you're gone.

So stay gone. Simply leaving is not enough. Don't go back expecting to find your happiness, because that is exactly where you lost it. You don't answer the 3 a.m. phone call, and you delete the voicemail before listening to it. You don't let him visit and you erase from your memory the path to his house. You let yourself be vulnerable.

But now, you have forgotten how to live your life without constant chaos and abrupt feelings. When he was still around, you felt like you were being slapped in the face and kissed so lightly; your skin would burn with rage, and your heart would melt, all in a matter of seconds. So now, hating him is the only way to feed your withdrawal from a world of unpredictability. That was the only normal you have ever known. All you want to do is jump out of your own skin, to escape from your own mind, but you can't. Because that is the only place you still have him.

How could he do that to you? You wanted to succeed with him more than you wanted to breathe. He polluted your mind with lies of love and forever. You convince yourself you're doing better, you're getting over him. You tell yourself that you're living the life that's good for you. But you'll always have that voice in the back of your mind reminding you that you're not as good of a liar as he always was. Nostalgia is a bitch that is notorious for creeping up on you when you thought you were doing just fine. Even worse, it makes things seem way more perfect that they ever were. You're trying to take it day by day, trying to stay gone, but you're struggling.

You long to be your beautiful self again. But how could you when there was nothing beautiful about what he did to you? You start to find yourself crying a lot. But then, you're crying a lot less. And then one day, you don't cry. And then the next day, you don't even want to cry. But that next day never comes if you don't stay gone.

For once, be selfish and listen to yourself. You know what is best for you. You know the best way for you to heal. And you will heal. This won't always consume your life. Make peace with your past. Not because you’re weak, but because that’s what you need to grow. Your modern love was broken, don’t break yourself in the process of trying to save what was already gone. You had to courage to leave, find the strength to stay gone.

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43 SpongeBob Quotes To Use In Everyday Conversation

No context needed. We all remember these SpongeBob quotes.
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SpongeBob quotes are so universal that they never get old. That's because "SpongeBob SquarePants" is the one TV show that we are all guilty of watching and have absolutely no regrets every time we turn it on.

Most of us are no longer children, which is why our parents sometimes get that confused look on their faces when they see us watching "SpongeBob SquarePants." But you know what? "SpongeBob" is by far one of the funniest shows of our generation and the characters are some of the greatest. The best part about "SpongeBob," without a doubt, is the iconic quotes that we all still use in our daily language. With too many to count, here are some favorite "SpongeBob" quotes, from ones that all fans should know, to ones we use every day.

1. “Firmly grasp it in your hand.”

2. “Ha ha ha ha, it’s a giraffe.”

3. “CHOCOLATE!!!!”


4. “Well, it’s no secret that the best thing about a secret is secretly telling someone your secret, thereby, secretly adding another secret to their secret collection of secret, secretly.”

5. “Do you smell it? That smell, the kind of smelly smell. A smelly smell that smells... smelly.”

6. “Patrick, I don’t think Wumbo is a real word.”

"Come on. You know, I wumbo, you wumbo, he/she/me wumbo. Wombology, the study of wumbo! It’s first grade Spongebob!”

7. "I don't get it. I made my house a mess, which was making it clean, which made Squidward clean my yard, but that really means he's messing it up. But the opposite of clean is filth, which means filth is clean, that means Squidward is really making my yard a wreck, but I normally wreck my own yard which means, Squidward is being the opposite of Squidward which means he's Spongebob!"


8. “Is Mayonnaise an instrument?”

9. “F is for fire that burns down the whole town, U is for Uranium…bombs! N is for no survivors!”

10. “You don’t need a license to drive a sandwich.”

11. “The best time to wear a striped sweater…is all the time.”

12. “Once there was an ugly barnacle. He was so ugly that everyone died… the end.”

13. “My leg!”

14. “It took three days to make that potato salad…three days!!!”


15. “Can I be excused for the rest of my life?”

16. "Can I get some extra salt?"

“We're all out.”

Could you check?”

“…No.”

17. "Patrick, you're a genius!"

"Yeah, I get called that a lot."

"What? A genius?"

"No, Patrick."

18. "Oh, these aren't homemade. They were made in a factory... a bomb factory. They're bombs."


19. “You just CAN'T WAIT for me to die, can you?”

20. “Do instruments of torture count?”

21. “Hello, we’re with the pet hospital down the street, and I understand you have a dying animal on the premises."

22. “Hey Patrick, I thought of something funnier than 24… 25!”

23. “We should take Bikini Bottom and push it somewhere else!”

24. "Is this the Krusty Krab?"

"No! This is Patrick!"

25. “The Krusty Krab pizza is the pizza for you and me.”

26. “This is a load of barnacles…”


27. “Now he’s gonna kick my butt!”

28. "This is not your average, everyday darkness. This is... ADVANCED darkness."

29. “Too bad Spongebob isn't here to enjoy Spongebob not being here.”

30. “Remember, licking doorknobs is illegal on other planets."

31. “I’m not just ready, I’m ready Freddy!”

“It’s Larry…”


32. “I’ll have you know that I stubbed by toe last week and only cried for 20 minutes.”

33. “Hey Patrick what am I now?”

"Uh...stupid?"

“No! I’m Texas!"

"What's the difference?"

34. "Patrick, don’t you have to be stupid somewhere else?"

“Not until 4.”

35. “Are you Squidward now? ... That’s okay take your time.”


36. “Who are you people?!”

37. “Squidward that’s not the peace treaty, that’s a copy of the peace treaty.”

38. "What's your name son?"

"Name? Uhh, beef wellington."

"No your name."

"Uhh, fork on the left?"

39. "Ravioli Ravioli, give me the formuoli."

40. “Are you open?"

"Read the sign..."

“...l’ll have a Krabby Patty Deluxe and some double chili kelp fries.”

41. “HAHAHAHA THAT GUY GOT HIT IN THE HEAD WITH A COCONUT HAHAHA.”

42. “My sandwich tastes like a fried boot."

“My sandwich is a fried boot!”

43. “Too bad that didn’t kill me.”








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The Final Season of 'Game Of Thrones'

I'm excited and sad all at the same time.

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Now that it's upon us I don't know if I'm ready.

Does everyone remember what happened last season or are you like me and doing the GOT binge before the series finale?

I just finished season 1 and I'm starting in season 2 because if I'm going to binge it I'm going to do it the right way it's going to be from the beginning, besides who gets tired of watching Joffrey die?

My burning question that I'm sure EVERYONE wants to know is who will be on the throne in the end? Will it be Daenerys or Jon? I have my speculations or who I would rather see win.

Jon should rule. He was born of Fire and Ice. His father being Rheagar Targaryen and his mother Lyanna Stark. Fire and Ice. Then again, there are the stories that were told to Cersei when she was a young girl by the witch that there would be a girl prettier than her to rule. Does that mean Dani (AKA Daenerys)?

Or will she rule beside Jon? Will the two of them be a couple and rule the Kingdoms together? I'm dying to know! But these two characters are not my only focus at the end of the Final Season.

Where will Bran wind up with his abilities? What about Arya? Will she remain in Winterfell to be Sansa's executioner? Will she leave and go to King's landing if Jon takes the throne?

My time with Game of Thrones has been brief because I came in late on the show, probably season 4, I'm not sure, but I've poured over so much research, reading through the wiki pages online to reading actual books printed after the series began. It's a vast and intriguing subject.

What am I going to with my life once the season ends? There will be a hole in my heart were GOT once was. The fans of this show no matter who they root for will be crying at the end because someone's favorite is more likely to die than to live through the whole show.

If I could choose to put anyone on the Throne it would be Jon. He is honest and just like Eddard Stark raised all his children to be. He would technically be the ruler that all the faithful Targaryen supporters have been looking for. A Dragon to sit on the throne again. but, so would Dani.

Some wonder if she would go mad like her father because she can learn that way in some of her rulings. Like at Veas Dothrak, she killed all the men and took the women for her followers. Was that really necessary? She's a strong woman like Cersei but when compared there is a huge line that divides the two.

Both are loved and hated but honestly, I don't think that either of them belongs on the Throne. As for the rest, I am looking forward to seeing the way that it plays out. I have heard a rumor that George R. R. Martin has given the answer to who sits on the Throne of Iron.

Games of Thrones will truly be mourned in my house after it ends but I'm excited, to say the least for the Final Season.

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